Give Me Love || PanWink /GuanHoon

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Tittle : 5 month

Author's P.O.V

Jihoon is now in his fift month and thing wasn't as easy as he thought. Lately, Guanlin had always coming back home in the middle of the night. Whenever Jihoon ask, Guanlin will always tried to prevent it.

Jihoon is humming while preparing a kimbab for Guanlin. He wanted to surprised the male by sending the food personally to his office. He quickly changed into an oversize hoodie before heading to his husband's company.

He enter the lift with a wide smile, hoping that his husband will like the kimbab that he make (A/n, are you kimbab kidding me). He felt bad for Guanlin because the younger have always work hard for their family. He is about to knock but then, he heard a voice talking. Being a curious man he is, he silently eavesdropping every word that they talk. 

"I can entertain you. I know that your husband could't fulfill your needs due to his pregnancy so use me instead" Jihoon's heart clench at the woman's word. It is more painful when he doesn't heard any response from his husband.

He thought that Guanlin is going to shout at that woman or denied everything but all he heard was a silent. He tried to peeked through the window and to his luck, there is a small spot that wasn't covered by the blind curtain. The scene that is playing in front of his eyes make him drop the tupperware that contain the kimbab onto the floor. Hearing the sound, Guanlin's office door immediately flew opened. Guanlin look at the figure in front of him with shock. Jihoon's back is facing him but he know that it is husband.

"B-baby that's no-not.. Let me explain" Guanlin said with a guilty tone.

"Explain? Do you want to say that 'oh she put a glue on her lips and kiss me. I couldn't broke the kiss' or maybe 'oh she fell onto me and accidentally kiss me' or 'since my husband is pregnant, why don't I fuck her to release my sexual tension?'. So which one?" Jihoon said with a cold voice, or so that what Guanlin think. On the other side, the tears keep on slipping from Jihoon's eyes. That's the reason why he couldn't faced the younger. He tried to not make his voice sounds shaky as possible as he could so that the latter wouldn't know that he is crying.

"J-jihoon-ah" Guanlin said with a timid voice. (A/n, I accidentally fell asleep at this part tho wassup with my eyes).

"You know what? Just tell me directly that you doesn't love me anymore. It will be less painful that way" Jihoon said before running down by using the stairs. He didn't care whether he is pregnant or not, but what he know it that he needed to get away from Guanlin.

"LAI JIHOON! WAIT DON'T RUN!" Guanlin shouted while chasing Jihoon by using the stairs too.

"Stop! You are hurting our child if you keep on running! You are pregnant for God sake!" Guanlin shouted again after he catch Jihoon. The latter flinch and shivered.

"Did you only care about this fetus?" Jihoon ask with a shaky voice. His question make Guanlin taken aback.

"Do you think I didn't noticed the way you treat me nowadays? Did you even care about me? Or even a slight caring and loving feeling toward me like before? Did your work is more important than me? You never ask 'How is your day? Is it tough? Did you puke? Have a morning sickness?' anymore. All you ask is 'Is Jelly okay? I hope that our baby is doing okay'. I appreciate that but did you even considerate my feeling? You disappear before I wake up, you appear after I asleep. If you love your work more than me, than us, GO AND MARRIED YOUR WORK INSTEAD!" Jihoon is a crying mess now. He finally let out his feeling that he had kept for God know how long.

Jihoon didn't bother to wait for Guanlin's answer. He ran out from the building and hide in an alley. He pant slightly because of the running. He patted his stomach with a tears that is still flowing like a river.

It is true that Guanlin always went to work before Jihoon could even wake up and he will always come back at the time when Jihoon already fast asleep. They barely communicate with each other anymore and it break the pregnant male's heart but Jihoon will always think possitive. Until today, when he heard and saw everything, he couldn't contain his feeling anymore. He seat in the alley like a dumb people until the sun went down. He walk slowly to their apartment. When he arrived, he saw Guanlin's shoe in front of the door. He take a deep breath. He really doesn't wanted to facing his husband but he know that sooner or later, they still need to meet each other.

"Jihoonie, please listen to me" Guanlin pleaded.

"Talk" Jihoon replied simply without even looking at his husband.

"Jihoon-ah, it really wasn't ny intention to prevent from meeting you. I do care for you Jihoonie, I really do. I didn't notice that I'm only asking for our 'jelly' fetus instead of you. I'm sorry for always keep my work as my priority. I should have been taking care of you. About the incident just now, she is my assistant. I already fired her a few minutes ago. I'm so blurred just now that I couldn't stopped her. I'm so sorry Jihoonie, please forgive me" Guanlin is begging on his knee. Jihoon just nodded and cried loudly. Guanlin quickly stood up and hug his small husband tightly.

"I'm so scared that you doesn't love me anymore" Jihoon mutrered in between the sobbing.

"Baby, I'm sorry for hurting you. I'm really sorry. I love you baby, I love you  and I miss you so much (A/n, I know that some of you will continue with 'ijeseoya nukyeo uri gonggan' or 'ireokae nunmuri naneundae wae nan')" . Guanlin said while peppering Jihoon's face with a loving kisses.

Guanlin doesn't have any idea that he is too distract with his paper work before, until the incident happened. It make him realize that he just abadoned one of the most important person in his life. He is too oblivious to noticed his wrong deed. But now, he feel glad that he wasn't too late. He feel glad when Jihoon agreed to give him a second chance. He promise to not mess up anything anymore.

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A/n, I didn't update yesterday because I need to sleep early. We are going early in the morning today to celebrate my friend's birthday. We ate dakgalbi, watch two movies which is romance (I fucking cry bcs it's too sad) and horror (it was rated 18+ but my friend's mother help us by buying it online and bamm, we make it through) , ate dessert (bingsu), shopping a little and went back.
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Idk why did I tell you this but wtvr. I'm really tired today but I still update this chapt before I went to my dreamland.
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Btw reader, will you read it if I make another PanWink story?
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Bye, I'm going to sleep. Next chapt will be updated tomorrow..... Maybe😝❤
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