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Hye guys~Its been a long time since my last update..i'm really sorry for not being update..I just have so many things to do n i just got sick a few days ago..

I bet u guys already heard bout the news these 2 days right..Yes,our Bling Bling Kim Jonghyun dead..I dun know what to say when i heard bout this news..I'm really shock , hurt , sad n many more when i heard bout it..

At first,i thought that it was just a prank n fake when i read it at fb..then i search it at google to know if it just a prank or not n i can broke down when i found that it was real n reality..

I'm crying so much when i heard bout this new since I'm a Shawol since their debut n SHINee is the first boy group that I love from their debut until now..I'm with them since they just came out as a artist n until they become popular right now..So I'm really sad when i read bout the news.

Its so sad to know the group that we expect to always be complete on stage n would never disband just lost a member in the most heartbreaking way..

And its become more sad when he already give so many hints but we never noticed it..i guess it must be fate that he's gone..

I also want to said that please don't send a hurtful n hate comments to artist ig or photo or social media cuz we dun know what are they going through in their live..Maybe they always smile n laugh infront of us but we dun know what's in their mind n heart..

Thats why most of the artist have depression in their live because of us..We always said we love them n will always stay with them but at the same time we hurt them also..So please guys,cuz depression we cant see it through face cuz they will always hide it behind their (fake) happy smile..

Just look at the Linkin Park Vocalist that has died a few months ago,he also commit suicide cez of depression n the night before he dead,he was laughing with his family n didn't show any sign that he is sad or broken..So please, take care of your idols n don't bash other idols cuz depression is not a joke..

I knew bout this cuz I also had depression in my life n i'm still healing..I also had a thought about want to kill myself such as jump from a high place,cut my wrist , starve myself n many more..I did that cuz of many things happen to me..

I never tell about my depression to anyone..my family n also my best friends n friends never know bout this since i always smile , laugh happily n doing a stupid jokes with them but they never know what's in my heart n mind..

At night i will cry myself to sleep or will always think many things but when infront other perople i will always smile but after a few years,i finally tell it to my sis(HanJiJun , if u guys know n heard bout this acc, sheis my sis actually) bout it since i cannot hold it anymore..n I also shock n sad when she also tell me bout her depression since she seems happy n she also tell me the same thing..

So both of us told what was in our hearts n we crying our hearts out all the night n promise each other to always share our problems n healing together..

If before,i think that suicide is the only way n answer to end our pain but its not actually..But if guys still think that its only the way,i cant do anything bout it but i just hope that u guys will think bout it more..

I stop myself from commit suicide because i remember about my parents..I know that they will be sad n maybe will depress too if i kill myself..n i also think about my siblings..what will happen to them if i'm gone..so i stop myself..moreover cuz i still remember my God.. I know that he will always with me so i'm not alone in this cruel world.

I'm gonna hiatus for awhile cuz i have to calm my heart n mind first before update this story..hope u guys will understand bout it..

Anyway,I really hope that Jongyun will rest in peace..We,Shawol n all people that know n love u will always support u n remember u..Thank u so much for this 9 years that u did n give for us..and You Did Well,Kim Jonghyun!GoodBye Our Bling Bling Main Vocal..

#rosesforJonghyun 

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