[original] 'Til Death Do Us Part {Oumasai}

Chapter Nineteen: The Not-So-Happy Birthday.

*Trigger warning: suicide and self harm
"All three of us looked at each other with worry. We have to go there."

The three of us jumped in Rantaro's car, Kokichi and I sitting together in the back. I see Kokichi trembling, tears welling up in his eyes. "K-Kokichi it's okay! I'm sure Kaito just left his phone at home or something, or he forgot about today!" I'm sure when we get there he'll be relaxing on the couch, watching tv!" I attempt to reassure both him and myself.

He nods at me, trying not to panic too much. Once we arrive to his house we all practically leap out of the car. We all race to the door, pounding on it as if our lives depended on it. No answer. We knock louder, more eagerly. Nothing. Rantaro reaches into his pocket and pulls out a key. He opens the door and we all rush inside. We wander the house, no sign of him. Slowly we work our way to his bedroom, the only place we haven't checked.

We pull the door open slowly, fearfully. I feel myself drop to my knees as I see the horror before me. Kaito, hanging from the ceiling, blood running down his arms. "K-K-Kaito..." I whisper to myself in disbelief. My hands cover my mouth as I collapse entirely, horrified. "W-w-why..?" The three of us have tears rolling down our cheeks. Why would he do this..? He was such a great person...

Rantaro pulls out his phone, immediately calling 911. Kokichi attempts to calm me, speaking to me through his tears. Rantaro stutters as he speaks to the person on the other end of the line. Soon enough an ambulance shows up and takes Kaito away on a stretcher. I hope with all I have that he'll be okay.

Once he is taken away we notice something lying on the ground, a piece of paper. We all look at each other, afraid to pick it up. We all wait for one of us to pick it up, hoping that it was just a drawing or something. I see that clearly no one is going to pick it up, I have to. I walk over, slowly, and pick it up.

"Dear whoever finds this

If you're reading this, it means my plan worked. I'll miss you all in the afterlife, especially you Shuichi-Kun.

Kokichi congratulations, you won our game. Guess I'm just a sore loser, reacting like this. Ha...

I promise not to be a bother to you all anymore, I won't get in the way anymore. I'm so sorry for any trouble I may have caused you. I can't make up for the terrible, useless person I am, but I hope you can forgive me..

I'm not in your way anymore, Shuichi, my love."

I drop to the floor. What..? I re-read the last sentence. "my love" What does he mean? And what game with Kokichi?!? Why..?

I crumple the paper into a ball and throw it on the floor, curling up on the floor. "K-Kaito.. k-killed himself..." I mutter through my tears. Kokichi sits down beside me on the floor and hugs me. "He was one of the best people I've ever met, he didn't deserve this." I nod, hugging him back. Rantaro picks up the crumpled paper and opens it, reading it slowly, tears in his eyes.

I look at the wall. "Kaito.. why..?" I whisper, as if I could talk to his ghost. But it was too late, he was gone. And he wasn't coming back.

a/n
this chapter killed me to write because kaito's one of my favourite all-time characters my poor boy I love him so much he deserves better

also since I probably won't update tomorrow merry christmas if you celebrate it! if not enjoy your day, know that people love you so much! If you ever want to do something bad to yourself get help. There are people who want to help you get better. Talk to someone, me, your friends, your family, anyone. Let someone help you, I've fixed my messenger so you can talk to me if you'd like! I promise to do whatever i can to help you <3

take care of yourself because i love you so much
-max <3