I get up, wiping the tears from my face. I hurry to the door, I open it slowly. “Hey, are you alright? Can I come in? What happened? ” Vic said angrily as he pushed me outta the way and came in looking around.
Why is he even here? How does he know where I live? Wait, I don’t even know him so why should he care? So many questions were clouding my mind that I needed him out.
“You need to leave” was all I stuttered out before I just broke down. He just pulled me into a hug and it was the best thing ever. It felt so warm and it actually felt like I belonged there. “Can you tell me what happened? Then I’ll leave I promise” he whispered. I thought about it more and maybe I needed him here? I barely know him. But I need comfort but then again I really don’t care at this point.
I decided to tell him what happened.
“So your mom didn’t know you were suicidal? And you are gay? ” He said a little surprised, that’s what hurt me to be honest. “ You know what if you’re going to criticize me then you can fucking leave okay?! You know what leave, forget everything! ” I yelled. “ Whoa calm down I’m just trying to make sure I got it all figured out Kellin please don’t make me leave you need someone I can be your friend I know how you feel in a way! ” He shouted. How did he know how I felt? I feel like I want to jump off a bridge my mom is probably showing my journal to a mental institution. Nobody knew how I felt right now I needed to release, badly.
“Okay, I’m sorry for freaking out I just don’t know you well and I can’t take being judged, how do you know how I feel?” I said, I was curious. “I uh nothing never mind you want to go get something to eat? I know this really good taco place” He said. I could tell he wanted me to feel curious about him but I didn’t need to I didn’t want too. His brother just made my first day a living hell. Why would I want to get to know him?
“Okay yeah, I’m actually starving.” I said.
We cleaned up a bit before leaving. The taco place was actually a truck and it was really good. Vic and I talked for hours. I was getting to know him a little more than I needed too, but maybe I wanted too? Vic took me home and that’s when everything changed, he kissed me. I thought he was straight and he kissed me. This teenager I just met today had kissed me and I…. liked it.
