Grells POV
Grell lays in bed after all the videos and traveling making her stressed and tired as she sighs " I wish he didn't live so far away and be here, I really need him here.....I miss him so much and maybe he doesn't even know and probably moved on from me " grell starts stressing even more as her head throbs " ughhhh I need to stop stressing and being mad thanks a lot hormones and getting over it I fucking hate you, but not you " grell says as she keeps a hand on her stomach " I could never hate you or him well sometimes I can hate him but that's just because I love him and don't understand him...what am I saying you can't even hear me yet " grell tries to sleep
Sebastian's POV
Sebastian checking his wallet and bank and sighs " I'll have enough money to go to California but that's in like 4 or 5 more months and it's already been 2 months since I found out ughhh " Sebastian sits back down and sighs deeply and about to grab his phone but doesn't " I can't call her she's sleeping at this hour and if she calls me I'll be sleeping ughhh why does life have to be so fucking hard and complicated ughhh! " Sebastian bangs his head on the table and gets up punching the wall and slides down " god I miss her I wanna help her and see her so badly but I can't right now, I hope she's ok, I hope she didn't move on, I hope the kid is ok , there's so many things I need to worry about and so does she since she's the one carrying the damn thing " Sebastian sighs again " hopefully I'll make it in time for the birth at least and maybe even stay with them, she can't raise it by herself and still do YouTube at the same time that's too much work and also being on tour will just complicate even more things if only I was there "
( to be continued )
Song: jet lag
