Happily In Love {s.m} [BOOK 3]

seven

{shawn}

I wake up the next day naked in my bed. I sigh in disappointment as I realized that I gave Camila what she wanted...sex. I wasn't even up for it after what happened on social media.

I put on my boxers and sweatpants then go to the bathroom to freshen up. When I was done I threw on some clothes. And today I decided I wanted to go speak with Priscilla. I grab my phone then Camila wakes up.

"Where are you going?" She asks.

"Speak with Priss then I'll be back." I say.

"Why? I thought we decided that she wasn't going to be in the picture." She says as she sits up.

"Camila...I really don't feel like fighting right now. I'll be back." I say and I leave.

That was the first time I felt like I really stood up to her. Doing the things I want without having to sneak out. When I get downstairs I greet everyone then leave out the house. When I get up to her front door I knock onto it and her mom opens it.

"Shawn, hey come in!"  She says and let's me come inside. "What's up?"

"Is Priscilla here?" I asked.

"I doubt it. You can check upstairs and if she is please tell her that breakfast is ready." She tell me.

"Okay, I will." I reply as I made my way up the stairs.

The first place I stop at was her room. I lightly knock onto the door and it opens.

"Priss?" I say nervously.

It was completely silent. So I opened it fully and saw that she wasn't inside. I walked into her room fully and looked in her bathroom and her closet she was nowhere to be found. As I was headed back out the door  I tripped over something. It was her old song book. After Camila went through this one I bet she felt like she invaded her privacy. I would've changed it also.

Only her and I went through this old thing and looking at it made me smile slightly. I sit down on the floor and lean my back against her bed flipping through the pages. She wrote more than just lyrics she wrote her feelings and poems. I even found a page that was about me:

Shawn,
Everything about him is absolutely perfect. He's taught me how to love again, something I felt like I lost when I was with Tyler...something I lost when my parents weren't in my life. As he's teaching me how to love I'm teaching him to love himself. I hope this isn't good to be true because I love him too much and this time I'm serious x
P
I felt my heart warm up as I read through it. And I felt so bad because as I was teaching her how to love. I broke her heart again. And her happy notes about love and me and life turned into depressing ones filled with anger and sadness:

Why?
What did I do to deserve this...
I knew it was too good to be true. I can't believe I got my hopes up. I just don't want to love anyone anymore. I cannot believe he broke my heart. I thought he loved me. They were right love is a strong word and I shouldn't have been using it to loosely.
Everyday, 4am I stay up wanting to call and text him asking him why...why would he do this to me? Was I really not making him happy? Was my love not good enough? Did do something wrong? Was it really my fault that he cheated? Is she just prettier than me? I just want him back...but he's with her now. He's made fun of me getting raped he's said he wished he never helped me...he's changing. And every night I cry about him...because I still love him. I'm addicted to love. Because I did the same thing when Tyler would hurt me. Shawn is blinded by Camila lies and every time i try he always picks her over me. What do I do...I've been so sad in my life. And the wrist part is no matter how many times I'll bring him to my life while he's with her he'll never apologize for every little thing he's done....

I felt so fucking bad. I felt tears brim my eyes. This was horrible. I felt so horrible. And just yesterday I nearly yelled at her for making Camila cry. But was it really Priscilla who said those nasty words to her? Or was it Camila just covering herself up. Camila was a good actor. She's gotten me multiple times when we would be just joking around.

So much was going through my mind. Now I really don't know if I should marry Camila. I quickly wipe my eyes off and go downstairs.

"No sign of Priscilla?" Her mother asks and I shook my head.
"Well do you want some breakfast while you're here?"

"Please? I'm starving." I say as I grab a plate from the cabinets.

"Knock yourself out." She says then sips her coffee.

I grabbed three pancakes, a banana, few pieces of bacon and sausages, eggs, and orange juice then went and sat at the table with Mrs. Ashton.

"How've you been lately?" She asks me.

"Really good actually. How about you?" I say as I bite into my sausage.

"I'm fine, but Shawn are you sure you're really good?" She says I paused and sigh.

"I'm stressed..." I say.

"I can tell. Priscilla is really worried about you lately you know." She says.

"She is?" I questioned.

"She always has been every since she met you. It's literally impossible for her to hate you. And it's because she loves you very dearly Shawn."
Francesca says to me as she opens up her news paper.

"What about Ethan? She had to not love me sooner point when she was with him." I say getting jealous when I brought both of them up.

"You didn't get this from me, but Ethan has recently put his hands on her. And it was the day she decided she wanted to come home after your wife stole her songs. She said he pushed her against the wall." I almost choked on my food hearing that as anger took over me.

"He what.." I say through my teeth. I knew that dick head wasn't good for her.

"They've spoke to each other and she's kept her word that they weren't going to be together. But I'm worried because she's going out with him tonight." Francesca says.

"I'll try and speak to her but I doubt she'll want to." I say as I finish up my food.

"Why?" She asks.

"Because camila accused Priss for making her cry. And Camila was crying so my first reaction was to back Camila up." I say feeling guilty.

"Shawn I understand that you're about to get married to this woman but everything she says about Priscilla isn't true. You can't believe her on everything. You've known Priscilla almost all your life. Hell you've dated her for god sake! And I'm not just being a concerning mother I'm telling you the truth. Why would a sweet person like her want to make anyone cry? Why would she bully anyone? Is Priscilla Ashton we're talking about." She says "I know my daughter and you know her too Shawn. It's a shame you blame her."

I was thinking hard about everything. My choices and what I'm doing wrong. Priscilla's mom, Francesca was right. Why would priscilla be that mean? Camila literally stole her song and continuously spesks so badly about her and the worst part of it all is that I just let her. Even after I snapped at Priss she still wore my necklace I gave her.

"I have to find her. If you see her please contact me somehow." I get up from my seat and put my empty plate in the sink. "Thank you for breakfast Francesca. And for this talk I really appreciate it."

I hug and kiss her on the cheek then head for the door. I didn't know where I was going to start when I spoke to her, but buying her, her favorite flowers hopefully helped.

I get into my Jeep and drove off to the nearest flower shop. There's so much I need to confess to her. And apologizing is apart of it.