full circle [UNDER EDITING] (stranger things Billy hargrove Steve harrington)

love and hate.

Emilies pov

I walked in to school steve intertwined his fingers with mine. I caught sight of my self in the glass of the doors. A black bruise stood out against my skin. I took a deep breath Steve looked at me. "Hey beautiful. Don't think about it." I smiled nodding as we walked in. People whispered but no matter what they said I knew I could handle it. Steve kept himself next to me. I paused for a moment seeing ashlee. She was lent against against the lockers. Billy hargrove hovered over her. They were laughing... they were happy. I looked at Steve "you've got to be fucking kidding me" his jaw tensed I put my hand on his shoulder. "Leave them Steve.  It's fine." He frowned looking at me "why do you always defend him! The guys needs his ass kicked! So for once let me do it!" She grabbed his wrist. "Because if he gets a slight upper hand he won't stop! He didn't stop on me and he sure as he'll won't stop on you" Steve stayed still for a moment "I guess I'll have to take hat chance" before I could argue his fist connected with Billys cheek. His whole body feel against the locker as he hit his head. My hand shot to my mouth "Steve stop!" He hit him again. And again and again. "Steve that's enough!" Ashlee shouted. Steve refused to listen. I saw Jonathan and Nancy come in to view.  Jonathan raced forward pulling Steve back "enough man!" Billy lay against the floor laughing as he pushed him self up. "STEVE LOOK OUT!" I managed to scream. Steve ducked as Billy threw a punch. I ran forward grabbing Billys arm. "Stop it!" Billy pushed me off "What the hell did I say about staying out of this!" I saw Steve get up about to throw a punch. I ran in front of him pushing him backwards as the push was thrown. Steves fist connected with my eye. I whole body slammed to the floor. The fighting stopped. I couldn't see anything it was blurry. "Oh my god" I heard Steve speak. I was pulled to my feet by Billy.  "You okay?" I nodded my hand over my eye. Steve pushed Billy aside standing in front of me. "Baby I'm so sorry.  Let me see. Are you okay" I shoved his hand off my shoulder. "Just fuck off steve" I grabbed my bag walking off. "WELL DONE HARRINGTON!" I heard ashlee's voice.  I threw my bag on the floor letting tears fall. My whole face stung. Billy must be made of steel because Steve sure hits hard. I took out a ciggerette trying to find my lighter until one clicked in front of me. I looked up seeing Billy standing over me. Lighter in his hand at my level. I slowly lit my ciggerette. Pretending I wasn't crying. Billy bent down. "You know what. Harrington my be a whimp but he has a strong right hook." I took a deep drag. "Left" Billy frowned "What?" I sighed flicking the ash off the fag "it was a left hook." I finally met his eyes. He reached out tucking hair behind my ear looking at my already bruising eye. He stayed there for a moment. I began to grow nervous "your really scared of me huh?" I let out some smoke. "Not of you. Of what your capable of... can you blame me?" His face grew with sorrow. "I didn't mean for that to happen in there" I nodded. "Does it hurt?" I nodded again this time tears broke through the walls I was putting up. I sobbed loudly grabbing my hair smacking my hands against my head. Billy grabbed my wrist stopping me "hey! Hey! Calm down. Your too pretty to hurt your self like that" I carried on crying. "What if he's just like you Billy...." he kept hold of my wrists. "Look harrington is a lot of things. But he's nothing like me. He wouldn't lay a hand on you on purpose. Even if you begged him too he wouldn't touch you. Because he won't be like me. Harrington likes you. He loves you way more than I did. He is hooked on you doll. Just because he made a mistake doesn't mean he's like me." My tears still fell. But Billy was right for once. "Your face still hurt?" I nodded. I'll go find something cold okay. You stay here" he go up walking away. I took another drag allowing my tears to fall untouched. I heard footsteps. Someone handed me a ice cold can of coke. "Thanks bill-" I looked up to see Steve "oh it's you" I didn't mean to sound so disappointed but... I didn't know how to feel. "Yeah... can I sit down?" I nodded taking yet another drag. I placed the can against my eye watching he smoke curl out of the end of the ciggerette and fade into the air. "I have no idea what to say to you." I couldn't look at him. I waned to but... I couldn't bring myself to do it. "I don't want you to think I'm like him. You know me Emilie.  I wouldn't hurt you. It was a mistake. I saw red and wanted to hurt him. I didn't see you in front of me until it was too late. I'm sorry..." I pulled the can away from my face flicking the ciggerette out of my hand. "I got you bad huh?" I nodded looking at him. "I just didn't want him to hurt you" I choked out. He sighed "oh baby." He sounded so sympathetic. "I... I'm sorry I got in the way"  he frowned looking at me in an angry way "stop doing that. Stop saying sorry for what other people do. Just because I get angry about things doesn't mean they're your fault. I'm angry at myself not you. All I wanted to do was project you from Billy.  And I ended up giving you a black eye. I mean jeez. It was my fault you ended up in Billys car yesterday." I frowned "no Steve. Don't talk like this is all your fault. Just be-" he shook his head cutting me off "we should break up" I froze in pure shock "What?" He looked at me. "I keep getting you in these situations... I need to stop. I have to stop before you end up hurt again" I got up. "Okay... if that's what you want" he stood up "you know it isn't." I ran my hand through my hair "then don't leave. Please..." he looked at his feet. "I have to" I cupped his face with my hands. "Look at me steve" his eyes slowly met mine "I love you" it was the first time I had said it. His eyes widened. He had always told me. But I couldn't say it back. "You love me?" I nodded. "Yes" his hands found my wrists as he pulled my hands away from his face. "Steve please" he walked away. I stood there my stomach turned "don't walk away from me! Steve!" I just stood there in complete shock