I grin while I'm hurting.
I'm my own worst enemy,
Alone with others
I find I can't sleep.
I feel helpless, no escape.
My worries wake me.
I want to speak it.
I cannot just explain it.
I feel I'm broken.
I feel like I don't deserve what I have.
I fear everyone will leave.
I don't understand why people like me.
I can't see why.
I'm needy.
I want to share it,
But I don't want to lose you.
'Cause my thoughts scare me.
I need to stay strong.
If I don't, it will get me.
I smile while broken.
Will you understand?
This is not a cry for help.
This is just the truth.
I just want to die.
I don't want to kill myself.
I want it to end.
I cannot say it.
Keep it all inside myself.
Depression has me.
- Matthew Markson
