After All These Years

Trust

Lauren POV:

"Lauren... Lauren no..." I look across to Camila who is whispering my name. Her head is moving violently and there's tears flowing onto her pillow. I softly shake her to wake her up.

"Hey Camz it's okay I'm here now." I kiss her cheek carefully.

"Lolo?" She sniffles. "Oh my god Lauren."

She jumps on me and wraps her whole little body around me.

"Did you have a nightmare about me?"

"I dreamt that you thought I didn't love you and you kicked me out."

I hug her tight in my arms and she snuggles into the crook of my neck. She kisses me and it gives me shivers up my back.

"You do believe me don't you?" She whispers.

"Believe what babe?"

"That I love you."

I did believe that she wasn't going to hurt me like she did before.

"I did find it hard when you first came back, but I'm starting to believe you more and more as time goes on."

"Good, because I do love you, so so much."

"I love you too."

We get up and get ready to go to the studio. We dress smartly but to not too smart. I wonder what Roger will say when he sees me. I hope stories don't get out about us.

"Camila?" I ask, now curious about the album.

"Yes gorgeous?" It honestly gave me butterflies in my stomach whenever she called me gorgeous.

"What songs are about me on the album?"

"I'll explain when we're there, not in front of Roger or anything though."

I nod in response as I begin to get cereal out for breakfast.

"You wanting toast too?" I ask her. She's probably feeling nervous.

"No thank you."

We finish up eating and I can tell Camila is a little stressed out. She stands up and picks up her bowl to take it to the sink but drops it, leaving it falling to the floor and shattering.

"Shit!" She shouts. She puts her face in her hands for a moment then bends down to pick up the broken pieces of ceramic. I stand up to go and console her. I get her to stand up too and hold her in close.

"It's okay! Don't worry about it, it's just a bowl babe."

"I'm so stressed and nervous Lolo."

"I can tell, you were like this when we brought out Reflection too." I chuckle. "It's going to be amazing. I know you, Camila. You don't stop until everything is perfect."

"I'm just scared that no one will like my sound. It's nothing like Fifth Harmony." She says truthfully.

I sigh and kiss her hair. 

"Only time will tell baby."

We both pick up the broken pieces of bowl and put them in the trash. We then make sure we have everything and leave the house. I offer to drive because I was scared Camila would get distracted. I look over and she's not her usual self.

"Camila stop worrying! Havana is doing so well. The whole world is watching you." I take my hand off the wheel and place it on her lap.
"I believe in you Camz."

She smiles and grabs a hold of my hand, picks it up and kisses it softly.

"You honestly melt my heart Lauren Jauregui."

We arrive at the studio and there is paparazzi there. I drive around the back, praying that they haven't properly seen us.

"Fuck." Camila whispers.

We get out the car and run inside. We did not want to be caught. We make our way to a small room with a stereo system. We sit down with Roger who is pretty surprised to see me.

"I did not expect this from you Jauregui." He looks uncomfortable.

"I'd rather support her than spend the rest of my life resenting her." I say a-matter-of-factly.
He shrugs and gives Camila a copy of the album in a CD case.

"This is the first official copy," he explains. "Don't lose it, it may be worth a lot."

Camila smiles and looks down at it, almost not believing what she's seeing. She opens it and takes out the CD carefully and hands it to Roger, who already has the stereo system ready. She flips over the case to reveal the track list.

"Ready?" Roger asks.

"Ready." Camila breathes. I grab her hand and hold it tight. The first song begins playing and I recognise it from the radio.

"This one you've heard properly, want to skip it?"

Camila nods at Roger's question. He's about to press the button when Camila stops him.

"Wait! Hold on," She exclaims quite loudly. "Have you heard it all?"

"Me?" Roger asks confused. "I have yes."

"This is going to sound a bit rude, but can Lauren and I just listen to it by ourselves?"

My eyes widen and I become increasingly nervous as to why Camila doesn't want her own manager there.

"If that's what you're wanting, then that's fine." He shrugs again and leaves the room.

"Why did you do that?" I ask as soon as the door shuts.

"There's some songs on here that are about you Lauren," She lets go of my hand and I notice that hers is a little sweaty. "I need to tell you about them and warn you before hand."

"Camila I don't care if Roger knows about us, you know that don't you?" I look at her.

"I do though! I don't think he would understand if I told him."

"Okay babe. Whatever makes you feel most comfortable." I reassure her by giving her a kiss on the head.

"Okay so the first one is obviously called Never Be The Same. Have you heard it?"

I nod truthfully. It was no lie that I kept up with Camila's career, even if that meant listening to her beautiful voice that made me miss her even more.

"Okay, well the next one is called 'All These Years' and I wrote it after the VMAs."

I think back to the VMAs and remember only a small portion because, naturally, I was drunk. There was one point which I thought was a dream, but obviously not if Camila remembers it too.

"Camila!" I shout stumbling over to drunkenly greet my ex girlfriend. She looks at me, horrified. She throws her jacket over my shoulders and helps me put my arms through.

"Make sure and get yourself warm gorgeous, you don't want to catch a cold." She says before walking off. I watch her as she flawlessly glides off into the new crowd of people that weren't paying an attention to us.

I listen to Camila's song and the heartfelt lyrics that went along with it. The line that really stood out to me said:

"I still feel everything when you are near, and it was just a quick hello, and you had to go, and you probably will never know, you're still the one I'm after all these years."

Sorry this chapter took so long! Lots of stuff going on. I won't write much over the weekend either but I'll be back next week!