I feel empty. Is this what it feels like without you? I wouldn't last a week. I find myself looking for excuses just to see you but it would make it too obvious, not that it would be a bad thing, i'm just afraid of scaring you off. I hope that one day I can just spend the whole day with you alone. Look at me, this is stupid. I can't be with you. I want something more, you want to stay the same. The waters flowing and i'm staying still. The world keeps going while I just wait, wait for you to say something. Please. I understand if you don't see me the way I see you but you can't just stare at me like this.
I wake up and wash my face. I look at my reflection and my eyes are red. What happened to me? As I walk back towards my bed I fall down and realise I have a limp. I call you and ask what happened and she tells you ——————
Am I crazy? Am I dreaming? I turn around only to see you, close to me but not close enough for me to hug you and you're just staring. I look at my hands and i'm shaking. You speak and I start hearing a loud ringing in my ears, like white noise.
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