I can't help it anymore. It's just who I am. I wish I could stop myself and realise how dumb this is. But I find peace within your grasp. I can't depend on you, I have to do this myself. How can I do that when i'm like this. I always try to find something to distract me, just to get the thought out but I just can't. This sucks, and I can't do anything about it. Maybe I just need to be alone right now, but I do the stupidest things to myself when thats the case. But i'm scared. I can't keep doing this to myself and should ask for help when I need it. I should just ask, but I don't even think that'll help. I am caught up. Please let go.
