I Find Myself in Words

Saturday Nights

Normally, Saturdays are just me on my computer all day,
by my self,
alone.
And it's not because I don't like going out it's just,
nobody really invites me to things.
It's not like I would want to go but;
I would at least like an invite.
I want you to invite me to things.
I want a reminder that you actually want me in your life.
I just need a reminder because I'm so close to giving up on us.
I really don't want to, but I can't keep waiting for you.
I know you won't come back.
I'm an after thought and I can't take it.
I can't take knowing that you don't care.
I'm waisting my precious time on you.
I'm sick of it.
Invite me to things so I can have that reassurance that you still care,
even in the slightest.