The Showman

The test

"You ok?" He asked from the other side of the door. He could hear the sound of her vomiting "Open the door please" he said now a bit more serious "Babe, open it, come one" he insisted until the bathroom door opened to find her holding the toilet and sitting on the floor "What's going on?" He asked
"I don't know... I've been feeling dizzy for days..." she said "I'm ok. I'll be better tomorrow; maybe I just need to rest. I've been working a lot these days, so I can have some time off with you. I'm tired, it's just that" she said and got up
Bono held her and laid her in bed. He caressed her hair while singing very softly and close to her ears. She felt safe now. She knew Bono would take care of her. He suddenly stopped caressing her and singing out of a sudden. He realized something. Sun opened her eyes and looked at him.
"Sun... Are you...Taking pills?" He asked as she looked at him
"I'll see tomorrow how I feel and I'll take something" She said
"No, no. I'm talking about the other pills" He said "Are you taking contraceptives?" He asked now more directly
"No... You've always used condoms" She said "You're saying that, because you want me to start taking them?" she asked
"I'm asking because when we made love we were too into each other, I didn't use one" he said "And it's been almost a month..."
"What?! No, no. You used condom" She said trying to remember
"I didn't. I was sitting on the piano chair, we made love right there... " he said lifting her chin "Look at me" he knew she always felt safe when he looked at her "I'm here. With you, ok?" He said while grabbing her hand
"I hope I'm not pregnant" She said like thinking out loud
"Why do you say that?" he said lifting his eyebrows
"For many reasons; I'm young, I have a career to work on, we don't have a normal relationship, we're living in the opposite sides of the world, I'm not ready to raise a child and...."
"Stop, stop. A baby is never a problem. And normal is boring, what we have is more interesting. About where we live, you can come to Dublin and leave with me, it's not a problem either. Don't get nervous, ok? I'm not going anywhere"
"It's not that easy. We've never been together more than 4 weeks, and now you're telling me to go live with you? My parents don't know about this and now I'm supposed to tell them I got pregnant from someone I knew only 6 months ago and that I'm moving to France or Dublin or I don't even know where? And what about my job and family in Buenos Aires? Your work is not that easy either; you are away most of the time touring or something..."
"Stop! Nobody said it was easy. We met 6 months ago and seen each other only a few times, yes, but I do love you and I know you love me back as well. We tried our best to be together. You proved me that you'll be with me on my best and also my worst days. What we lived this 6 months is much more than a normal couple lives in 6 years or even more" Bono said while grabbing both her hands
"It's just... I'm nervous. There are too many new things I don't know if I'm ready for them... A relationship, leaving together, moving away from my family, leaving my job behind, a child! Jesus!" Sun said still nervous
"Look. I understand your concerns, we can try living together or we can see each other around the world. Top 3 weeks without seeing each other. About your family, I think they should know about us, or they'll find out from the news and I think that's not quite nice" Bono said making her calm down a bit.
"It's too much to think about... Take me with you please. I need to do that test"
They headed to a pharmacy and Sun got inside to buy the test. She came out from it with one test on her hand.
"You should take at least two. It's not easy to make the test when you are that nervous, and It may be a false positive, so grab another" Bono said like if he had done it before.
Sun looked at him confused and remembered about her suspicion of Ali's pregnancy. She got back to the pharmacy, took 3 and both went back home. It was the moment of truth.
"I want to ask you a question before doing it... in fact, I wanted to ask it a long time ago, but couldn't find the right moment.." Sun said as Bono nodded "Don't get angry, ok?" She asked a bit nervous
"Jesus! I'm already nervous, ask me now, come on"
"Was... Was Ali....Well... Was she... Pregnant when she...Umm... When..."
"Yes" Bono said and looked very serious
Sun stayed silent and still. She couldn't believe his answer, even thought she had her suspicious. He also answered pretty fast, something she didn't expect.
"She was almost 9 weeks. Nobody knew. Just Ali and I. How...?"
"The night you got drunk in Michael's house, you said something that made me suspect she was pregnant" Sun said
"Ohh... I see. What did I tell you?" Bono asked
Sun told him the exact thing he told her and hen both stayed still and in silence, looking at each other in nervousness.
"And was it planned?" She asked
"No. We were spending very few times with each other and I felt I wasn't ready for being a father. With the tour and trying to manage fame it was really hard. But now I kind got used to it, fame and touring. This time is different, things happened that made me think about certain things in life, like family..." Bono said as Sun stayed silent looking at him with the 3 tests in her hand and a look of despair. Bono knew then, he had to calm her down.
"Before doing this, I just want you to know, if you're pregnant it was definitely the best timing. The first time we both said we love each other and the first time we made love. You came out of a sudden, I was surprised. I needed you and you enlighten me and we proved it making love as we did. So If I have to choose a moment to conceive a child, that one would be the perfect one. Even though we didn't planned it, someone else did" Said Bono looking at the sky
They both hugged. He was always sweet and gentle when she needed the most. His words calmed her. She felt something new, for the first time, she felt loved.
Sun now knew it was the moment of truth. She got into the toilet as Bono waited outside. She did one and came out. Bono was nervous and exited at the same time. He hugged her and looked at the test for the result while holding her tight. It was negative.
"Do a second one. Maybe you moved or something, I know it's not easy to do" Bono told Sun
She nodded and got again into the toilet. Some seconds later, she got out with the second test in her hand. He hugged her again and stared at the test waiting for the result. It was negative, once again.
"Negative" she said looking at him with relief and sigh. Bono just nodded. "Are you ok? You look like... disappointed?"
"No, no. It's. I don't know. Maybe I was. Never mind. Don't worry" He said
"I do worry. What is it? You wanted to be positive?"
"I don't know... Maybe. I was kind of getting ready for it... The first time I was totally nervous, but this time was different. It's just me getting older, you know? I'm ok." Bono said as she nodded

They reminded quite silent for the rest of the day. What just happened shocked them both and in different ways, but make them feel that in just a few hours a few lines from a little test could change their life forever. Bono thought maybe it was a second chance, he love kids, so it would be nice. On the other side, Sun thought it was a bad timing and could probably ruin her relationship with this amazing man and well... she didn't like too much the idea of kids...
Sun got her mind back to earth and tried to pretend nothing happened. In the end they didn't see each other that much, so time was essential for them.
Days, weeks, months and even a year passed by. They were together and stronger than before. Seemed time apart from each other fit them well. They managed their time away from each other pretty good, in fact they bond strong and motivate each other from thousands kilometers away. And when they were together, every felling retained and contained went away. The need of love, sex, a caress, kisses, laughter, staring at each other, or even being just together in silence, flowed.