I'm His Little Nerd

I'm His Little Nerd - Chapter 13

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Chapter 13

After the day finished me and Lexi walked out of school together, she gave me a hug and we pulled away slowly

"remember you can call or text me whenever you need me yeah?"

i nodded and she pulled her bag more over her shoulder and walked over to Leon's car, someone was getting close to her ideal man. I chuckled to myself as i turned and began to wait for dad to arrive. I put my earphones in and Wiley - Wearing My Rolex came one and i began nodding my head along with the music.

My dad soon arrived and i climbed in and we were driving off, we blared the music along and i put my earphones back in my bag and watched as we pulled into a cafe car park, we got out and walked in.

5 minutes later and we were both drinking frothy cappucinos and tucking into a massive cheese and ham sandwich, i looked up at him and put my cup down

"so what did you want to talk about?"

he paused before looking up at me, putting his roll down

"there are a few things really"

i nodded slowly, gesturing for him to carry on

"well firstly" he took a quick sip from his drink before looking back up at me

"me and your mother..." his voice trailed off and i put my drink down and leant back in my chair, arms folded

"your splitting up arent you?" he looked up and nodded slowly

"im sorry sweetheart but its just not working, whenever i do something she doesnt like it and whenever she does something i dont like it and we've just lost everything"

i nodded slowly and held back the lump in my throat that made me want to burst into tears right now but i knew i couldnt, i had to be the strong one, for everyone.

I looked down for a few minutes and pushed my sandwich away from me

"im not hungry anymore"

he nodded slowly and looked up

"thats not all.." his voice trailed off again, i looked up fighting back the tears

"what else then?"

he paused before looking back at me, his eyes connecting to mine

"i have an extremely high blood pressure" i shrugged, what did that matter?

"so?"

he paused again before sighing heavily

"an extremely high blood pressure" he emphasised the word extremely and i took another few deep breaths before managing to speak again

"how high?"

he didnt answer just looked down, i began to panic slightly

"how high is it?" i asked again, getting sterner

he paused and looked up at me

"high enough to have a stroke or heart attack at anytime."

i paused and felt a tear fall down, he reached over and brushed it away gently carressing my cheek, i felt myself lean into his hand begging for comfort

"hey sweetie, dont cry, remember when i do go i'll never truely go"

i looked up slowly and a few more tears fell down

"i'll always be in your heart... well i hope so"

i nodded and chuckled slightly before giving him my hand, he took it and gave it a gentle squeeze.

"c'mon hunny, lets go home, watch tv and veg out in front of the tv"

he chuckled slightly and i nodded, he stood up and helped me up and we went over to the car, we got in and put the music on as we drove along all the roads.

We soon arrived home and whilst dad went and put a film on i went upstairs and got changed, i decided to wear one of his tops i mean who doesnt like wearing their dads tops?

I walked downstairs and saw that the film was waiting for me and dad had got us two drinks, he was sitting on the sofa and opened his arms for me, i went over and snuggled into him, he kissed my head gently and i leant further into him, the film started and i closed my eyes gently

"i love you daddy"

i felt a few tears fall down my cheek and i snuggled my head deeper into him, i couldnt loose him now, not now, he stroked my hair a few times before kissing my head again

"i love you too sweetie, always remember that, and dont forget" i looked up at him and he smiled weakly

"the skys the limit if we team up"

i nodded and saw a few tears fall down his cheek, i leant my head back into him and continued to cry gently

"we'll always be a team right?"

i felt him nod

"course, where-ever we are, we'll always be a team and i'll always love you with all my heart"

i nodded into him and tried to stop the tears but it wasnt working

"i'll always love you too dad" i managed to look up at him

"you know people say that girls usually go for men that are like they're dad?"

he nodded slowly and i leant back down on him

"theres no-one as wonderful as you"

he brought me closer and i heard him cry slightly but i couldnt exactly talk as i was bawling my eyes out

"well i hope anyone that comes close will treat you the way you are supposed to be treated and if anyone hurts you whether im alive or dead i'll haunt them till they go mad"

i chuckled slightly and nodded, crying even harder

"i know..." my voice trailed off as more tears fell, so much hard news in so little time

"i still love you dad"

he kissed my head gently and rubbed my side a few times

"i love you more"

i closed my eyes again and snuggled into him, i could hear his heart beating and i noticed it was beating slightly faster than a normal heart should be, it only made me cry harder as i knew that it was having trouble getting the blood around and was working harder than usual, i snuggled into him one more time before closing my eyes and slowly drifting off to sleep to the sound of the heartbeat belonging to the heart that truely did beat for me..

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ok so im sorry this chapter is short but it made me cry so much writing it because everything thats wrong with Ellies dad is wrong with mine meaning at any given point i could loose the most important man to me in my life, the doctors said many times its a miracle that he hasnt had a stroke yet so yeah... kinda praying for a miracle that he gets through my life especially for my brother...

so yeah this has been a rather emotional chapter and im still crying now... brilliant... this chapter is being dedicated to my dad and i know he'll see this so i just want to say.. i love you dad.. i'll always be your little angel no matter how old i am <3 <3

but anyway before i cry the river nile im going to go to bed because its getting later and i havent slept in ages so yeah im shattered, night guys <3 Cazza xxx