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I came home and opened the door.

"HONEY IM HOME~!" I yelled out.

No repsonse.

"Is she sleeping again?" I said walking up to the bedroom.

I opened the door and saw her body on the bed.

I didn't think much of it and closed the door.

"She is probably tired right now. Eh thats okay. I'll just go ahead and make dinner for the both of us." I said walking to the kitchen.

I was going to make a famous japchae recipe I learnt in highschool.

I grabbed all the ingredients I needed and started cooking.

-Time skip-

After about 2 hours I finished cooking.

I set out all of the plates and stuff but Y/N still hadn't woken up.

I decided to go and wake her up slightly worried why she would be so tired.

I slowly opened the door and she was in the same position as last time.

I walked up to her and shaked her shoulders a bit.

"Honey wake up, I made Japchae for dinner." I said trying to get a response.

Nothing.

"U-um Y/N? Wake up now please , this isnt funny" I said getting confused.

No response again.

I checked her pulse and I froze.

No

Response.

"No...no.no" I said grabbing my hair.

"H-h-how..." 

I threw my eyes around the room scanning for objects. 

I looked for anything on her body but I found nothing.

I saw a note hidden and the pillow.

I grabbed it frantically. 

"Dear Jungkook,

By the time your reading this... I'm gone. Yes, I did know that I was going to die. I'm sorry I didn't tell you anything about it. I didn't tell you about it because I knew things would be different. And I didn't want them to be. So I kept it a secret. I've been drowning in guilt every single day. I'm sorry. Please don't hate me. It wouldn't matter anyway though. All those last words we said to each other, was all I ever needed. Thank you for being with me. You're a gift from god himself Kookie :) , you'll find someone new. I know you will.

- Y/N"

This is not what I wanted.

I can't believe it.

Im standing infront of a dead body.

That is my "wife".

I hate myself everytime a second passes.

I

cheated

on 

her.

and she had no idea.

I can't even tell her anymore.

SHE

IS

GONE.

I can't forgive myself.

The more time passes.

The more I realise what i've done.

Im nothing

but

FAKE.