Bullies|| Noah schnapp x reader

Part 9

Your pov

Trigger warning

~2 weeks later cause I'm too lazy~

Two weeks have gone by, more calling me names more tripping me more telling me to just quit, telling me to kill my self, telling me to get away from them... just fucking hell

My depression has grown quite strong these two weeks, there's not a day I don't think about dying or hurting myself. But I can contain myself, I also asked the duffers If i could get a room by myself and they agreed maybe cause they saw how they treated me or I don't really know

But my new room was pretty roomy it had a nice view and the windows couldn't open thankfully, the bed was comfy, and pretty much looked like the room that millie and Sadie are sharing just about 2 feet smaller and only one bed, I had a bathroom all to myself woop woop

I was also just 4 rooms away from them

But anyways today we got out scripts for episode one, my character was a badass and I was exited to play this character but Sadie, Noah and I have a lot of scenes together in episode one

Well of course it's a dang show I'm not gonna be a loner the whole time in the show

But I am in my room right now crying, why you may ask I don't know.. maybe because I'm thinking about how my life used to be maybe because I'm rethinking the times my mom used to hit me.. maybe because of what the others say about me maybe because I'm just tired of living, and maybe Sadie is right I should stop trying I shouldn't even try to live anymore. I'm just a fuck up anyways

I'm actually believing them now maybe I was no no not maybe I WAS a mistake it's always my fault and the world would be a better place without me

I sob and sob uncontrollably

"I should just stop trying" I yell out to myself

"Maybe the world would be a better place without me, maybe Sadie Noah finn millie Maybe THEYRE all right" I scream to myself actually scream in between sobs

I couldn't take it anymore.. I got up but quickly stopped when I heard a knock on the door

My heart started pounding faster in my chest I didn't dare answer

"Y/n! Please open" I hear a female voice say, I know that voice anywhere though.. Sadie

I don't answer "come on I just wanna talk" she says I laugh a huge lump forming in my throat and tears spill out

"You?" I say getting closer to the door, I grab my phone "what? Do you just wanna tell me to kill my self? Are you here to make fun of me for crying" I hear her sigh

"No I just wanted t-" she was saying but I really didn't want to hear it

"I don't care, I don't wanna hear it" my voice cracked and i tried to swallow the lump in my throat "just leave me alone, I'm good at being alone maybe you'll never fucking have to see my ugly face anymore after I do you this favor"

"What favor?" She asks her voice sounding like mine

"JUST LEAVE!" I scream and run into the restroom where I sit down on the toilet and take my phone case off

I take out my old best friend that I haven't used in a while... the blade

I sit staring at the blade thinking about reasons I should actually do it I was about to do it when I heard knocks on my door harder this time

I cut once then twice then three times then four then five... until I made up my mind and cut as deep as possible I let out a groan and creepily smiled at the pain I stared at my arms bleeding until I started feeling light headed I heard my room door open and now someone was inside knocking on my bathroom door

"Y/n open the door!" I heard Caleb say

I'm sorry for this triggering chapter, but don't bully Guys!! It's mean and words hurt more than physical hurt