Bullies|| Noah schnapp x reader

Part 20

Noahs pov**

I hate myself

I didn't want to do that, I swear. I know I said millie could do what she wants and I couldn't care less but she was gonna go too far

Millie is such an asshole, what happened to her?

I can't tell y/n for reasons, though I've completely lost respect for millie. How could she make me do that? Why would I do it anyways, oh I know because if I didn't she would've exposed my personal life on "accident"

Anyways I'm waiting for her to get out of the restroom

She finally came out minutes later and looked at me as if I were Satan and an angel at the same time, but she quickly put her guard up

"WHAT THE HELL NOAH! I thought you were my friend! What- why the fuck would you do that??" She snapped

"Y/n listen I'm sorry, I didn't mean to-" I started to explain but she cut me off, I couldn't blame her though

"No! You don't just slip your hands onto someone's thighs without meaning to" She whisper shouted

"I know, I'm sorry I really am" i pleaded, I know sorry doesn't cut it but I really am

"Why'd you do it?" She asked again sternly, i took a step closer to her and stayed quiet for a while just looking into her eyes, I couldn't tell her why

"Exactly! There is no other reason, don't ever do that a-fucking-gain or you'll catch these hands- CAUSE IM NOT THE O-" She was in the middle of screaming at me, and some people were looking at us. I needed her to be quiet so I leaned in and kissed her

IM SORRY

She seemed like she wanted to pull away but couldn't, her muscles tensed up but soon enough she loosened up and kissed back

The kiss wasn't bad, it just felt wrong and right at the same time

I'm making so many mistakes right now

She finally pulled away when it was getting a little too heated, she just stared at me, her eyes full of lust, anger, hatred and annoyance, then she stormed off leaving me there alone to think about my actions

I went back to the table and saw that y/n was borrowing Sadie's sweater to cover her legs, I couldn't help but fight back a smile.. then I felt guilty cause this isn't funny at all

Through out the whole meal y/n avoided looking at me

Also some great news, we're gonna film the first episode of season 3 in a week then get the script and yarayara

*back at the hotel*

"You did what?" Caleb whisper shouted as I explained to him what I did

"I know! I know and I'm so sorry, I regret it" I didn't want Caleb Mad at me, and I really do regret it

"Noah I know this isn't you. But why'd you do it?" He asked again

"Promise not to tell anyone?" I asked and he nodded

"Friends don't lie Caleb" I said, he smiled and nodded

"Friends don't lie..."

So I explained to him what happened, I only left out one thing.. what millie was gonna 'expose' about me

(So I decided to give the boys two rooms, the first room holds Gaten and Finn and the second room holds Noah and Caleb.. lol sorry)

"What an evil piece of..." Caleb mumbled under his breath

"I know, I can't let her do that, but I feel like I'm being really selfish" I said looking down

"No, well kind of... just don't do what millie tells you to do, can I tell y/n or?" Caleb asked

"No! Millie would literally kill me" I said

"Fine fine, but you need to fix this" he said shaking his head

"I will... try" I sighed

"Okay well good night, it's" he checked the time "hah it's 9pm almost 10 so we need to get some sleep" he said standing up

"I'm not sleepy though, and where are you going?" I asked

"Noah you need to sleep tomorrow we have to wake up early to read scripts, also I'm going to go get a little snack" he said

"But we barley came from eating..?"

He looked at me blankly "yeah.. so?" He laughed

"Well okay" I smiled and he walked out I wasn't sleepy but I went to brush my teeth and put on my pj's

I went on Instagram and liked a couple fan edits, pictures and watched some stories then plugged in my phone and laid down making myself cozy

I tried going to sleep but I couldn't, my mind kept racing with thoughts I've never even had, then I started to think about y/n

I caught myself thinking about the kiss y/n and I had. it was wrong, the kiss doesn't mean anything to me though, I really hope it didn't mean anything for y/n either

I kept thinking about her and something else until I caught myself again and forced myself to stop, as hard as I tried I couldn't though

I drifted to sleep after a while thinking about...... things

Oop
I
hate
myself

But I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter, even though it's b a d. It's also early here. Aaand I forgot what else I was gonna say FRIG

It's 11:11 make a wish