I've been thinking of death lately
Not because I'm a loser
But because I've been fighting too long
And nothing seems to be worth it
Everything I do
Everything I am
Is just never enoughI don't blame anyone
But me
For being the way I am
It's all on me
What I amI hate myself
Does that make a difference?
What can I do to change me?
Because I've tried
Loads of times
And nothing seems to be working
I am just
The same old meI've tried to change me
Only to realise
I had always been more of
What I've been dreadingNobody seems to see
Not even me
That I need help
More than ever
At this very momentI can not do this alone
I can not fight this alone
I need somebody
But who?
I need to tell somebody
But how?Everyday
Drops of water
Are slipping out of my crack
How do I fix that?
Help meThere are secrets
Weighing me down
I want to tell
But is there anybody
I can trust?And maybe there is
A person who I believe
A person who'd listen to me
But maybe
I just don't wanna be helped
Maybe
I'm just waiting for them to know
Out of nowhere
Just know
Without me having to tell themI so wish they do
Before I think of death any further
Before I cause me any torture
Before I'm left with no future
YOU ARE READING
cacophony: a poetry collection
Poetryhighest rank - #1 in poetry • ° cacophony ; a meaningless mixture of sounds ° here i present a messy cluster of my thoughts. just like what the title mean, 'meaningless' my thoughts are to which I give shape in the form of words. this book is a com...