Today I will tell you the story of a girl.
That girl in your class, she laughs, she has a smile that lights up an entire room. That girl in your class, she has great grades, she doesn't even have to try. That girl in your class, she has seemingly amazing friends who care about her. That girl in your class, she has scars; lines marking her body, and friends that don't notice, and some that don't care. That girl in your class, she doesn't remember what it's like not to cry. She cries herself to sleep every night. But hey, she smiles. So she's okay. Right?
At 6 she wanted to be a ballerina
At 8 she wanted to be a veterinarian
At 10 she wanted to be a teacher
At 13 she wanted to be pretty
At 16 she wanted to be dead
But
At 18 she graduates high school
At 20 she studies for her final
At 22 she gets her diploma
At 24 she finds her career
At 26 she whispers "I do"
At 28 she holds her newborn child
At 30 she wipes her tears and whispers
"I made it"
This girl will someday be me. I am the girl that laughs in class, I'm the girl with great grades, I'm the girl with great friends. I'm the girl with scars, I'm the girl with friends that don't notice these scars, I'm the girl that cries herself to sleep, and I'm the girl that smiles so that everyone thinks I'm ok.
When I was young I wanted to be all those things. Now all I want to do is die. But I promised myself to never hurt my family, my friends and my boyfriend ever again so at 18 I will graduate high school, at 20 I will study for my final, at 22 I will get my diploma, at 24 I will find my career, at 26 I will say "I do", at 28 I will have my first child. And you and I know that at 30 I will finally have built up the strength to tell everyone that I survived the hell I put myself through. I will wipe away my tear and say... "I made it"
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The Untitled Story of an Anxiety Disorder
RandomI'm the girl who is always there for people when they need a friend but I am also the girl who faces many issues alone, but would still do anything to see someone else smile. This is the diary of someone living with anxiety. Some people might think...
