Leave me
Just leave me
Just let me be.I'm tired
ExhaustedDealing with this battle
ConsistentlyOn off
Like a light switchIt gets to be so much
At timesI wish it wasn't a ticking bomb
Tick, ticking
Just waiting..Fine one minute
A mess the nextI swear to you I'm not crazy
I'm not losing itIt's just how is
One thing for sure
I'm always goingFighting,
Managing,
Staying Strong..Falling down
It can leave me bruised,
Wounded.
Weak for days,
Weeks,
Who ever knows.I've always gotten back up
Brushing myself offHardly think about whats
In front of me
For years to comeOne day is a battle at times as is
Up, down,
This way, that way..
One me against me.
Against the world
Against you.
Against this..
How can I look so far?I live in the now
More like flow through
Like the wind.Like the wind.
It goes smoothly.
It goes roughly.
It,
it just doesn't.Moments I feel
Mostly
NumbHow can that be living
I know it's notEven with my heart
Beat, beat, beating
Safe against my chest
EnclosedGod I want to feel
Get addicted to it
Like a drug, high
On emotionProblem is I never think
Once I'm feeling
About it
For I'm feelingUntil I'm back
To nothingnessYet again.
Hate.
I hate.That's more there
Than othersHate..
Hate this
Hate the lectures
Hate the guilt
Hate him
Hate you
Hate me
Hate life(Mostly) come to hate this me
One way or another.Tell me something I don't know
For I know
I don't deserve this
You mean well
You love me
They always seem to do.I know
I deserve to be loved
Happy
To love me
To love lifeI can't control
Not so much yet
This meIs
And always be
Be meSo might as well
Just let it be
Just let me be-N.Q.
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The Deepest Parts Of My Soul
Poetry"I'm a disease you can't heal Pimple that you can't get rid Leaving a scar" "It's funny How that simple cut Can effect so much of our lives" ....my innermost thoughts and emotions written across the page for all to see in attempts to heal mysel...