Color Blind

Chapter 18

"Falling in love now loosing control now .." " she's falling but she doesn't think he'll catch her.."

I knew I should never have trusted him. I don't need a guy who is just gonna break my heart. I'm not trusting him agin I cant. I fell in love with him and it's my fault. I was taken by his foolish smile and charm to blind too see who he really was. I have multiple miss text and calls from him but I can't talk to him ever again ever. I hurt everywhere the morning sickness doesn't help at all. I want to forget everything. I went to the liquor cabinet, I know I should drink but my minds telling me too. I start drinking the henny and other shit I found. I haven't drank or smoke since I found out I was having a baby but fuck this I can't deal with this shit sober. I passed out I remember closing my eyes. Then I heard Diego's voice but I couldn't open my eyes to curse him out. I felt numb and felt nothingness. Then I woke up in a hospital bed with Diego crying next to me. Seeing his face made me so angry. "What the fuck are you doing here Diego get the fuck out I hate you!" "Listen soph I need to explain but first you need to know your in danger of having a miss carriage right now so don't stress the alcohol made you pass out and it could have hurt the baby there doing test right now to check on the baby, but the heartbeat is very slow, so there trying to help it." Those words hurt and I know it's my fault he better not pity me I did this. It's my fault. He comes on the bed and laid down with me. "It's ok,it'll be ok." "Just let me talk to you before you say anything." "Ok but only 2 minutes is all I'm listening." "I'm only doing this for the baby." "Ok listen soph that girl Kc is the groupie from that night, she claims she is pregnant but I had a condom on there's no way. I'm having a dna test when her baby is born I promise you it's not mine love." "I never hit a girl without a condom of course you because I love you and I wanted to have a child with you baby." "Diego this doesn't forgive the situation I saw he texts before and you hid it from me." "Baby I'm sorry I thought if I didn't tell you this wouldn't happen and I could do he test and be done with this." " we were getting married you can't hide this shit." "I'm sorry I though it was the best option I should have told you and I'm sorry." "What do you mean we're?" "Diego I don't know if I can marry you now." "Baby yes you can I love you more than I have loved anyone your my everything you make me feel alive agin please don't do this." "I love you too Diego we can get married but we are pushing the wedding back." "Anything you want my love." He put his head on my chest kissing my belly. I love him but he drives me crazy I'm doing this for the baby and for me but I'll see how it turns out. "Ms. Sophia and Mr. Leanos, we have an update on your baby girl." Diego stands up " yes doctor
?" "Well the baby's heartbeat was going very slow due to the alcohol intake and we thought it would have long term damage to the baby." Diego had a tear coming out his face while I was crying. "Doctor what can we do." Diego asked "Well it seems that we got the baby's heartbeat up and we're going to keep her heat to monitor her and the baby but it seems everything will be fine with you wife and the baby." "Thank you Doctor , thank you so much." "No problem now get some rest ma'am."
My tears stopped a little. Diego came back in bed with me and gave me a kiss and told me he was going to our apartment to get me some clothes and I drifted off to sleep.