Typical Heartbreaker (Heartbreakers Series #1)

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

I had a boyfriend when I was in grade seven. He was a fourth year high school student at that time. Hindi ko siya kilala noon. Ang totoong crush ko no'n ay si Eli na mukhang hindi naman ako gusto pabalik.

Maybe, during that time, I was looking for the affection I couldn't get from Eli. I was a teenager curious about love. I was curious about relationships and that curiosity led me to this guy.

I always sat at the bench beside the open court near the junior high school Building at nanonood sa mga naglalarong fourth year students sa baskeball court kapag hinihintay ko si Eli pagkatapos ng klase. Kahit hindi ako mahilig sa sports, nagugustuhan kong manood ng mga laro dahil sa galing ng karamihan doon.

I met him because he first approached me. Hiningi niya ang number ko isang beses nang hintayin ko ulit si Eli sa gilid ng court at nagbigay naman ako ng number.

We texted for three months. Nakita ko ang mga efforts niya para sa 'kin. Tulad na lang ng kapag naglalaro siya ng basketball kasama ang mga kaibigan niya, he would really stop whatever he was doing just so he could reply to my texts. Hindi kami sabay ng break time pero pinagre-reserve niya ako ng pagkain sa canteen dahil madalas na nagkakaubusan ng pagkain doon. Maybe that was why I became so dependent on him.

Hindi alam ni Eli 'yon dahil hindi ko sinasabi. Baka kasi sabihin niya kay Daddy at ayaw ko namang magalit si Daddy sa 'kin dahil pakiramdam ko ay ayaw pa ni Daddy na mag-boyfriend ako no'ng mga panahong 'yon. Isama pa na masyadong matanda ang fourth year high school student para sa isang grade seven.

Eventually, I fell for him. We became a couple. He was very sweet. Sikreto ang relasyon namin sa mga kaklase ko dahil ayaw kong malaman ni Eli. Sikreto rin kay Daddy dahil ayaw ko ring malaman niya.

Pero siya, he wanted to introduce me to his family. I realized, then, that he was serious about our relationship. But I was too scared that time. I didn't want to meet his parents. Inintindi niya 'yon kahit na alam kong nalungkot siya sa desisyon ko.

He was so happy to be with me. I felt that. I was very happy too that it became too much. I became toxic. I became too greedy and confident.

He couldn't afford these expensive shoes he wanted so I bought them for him. He was so angry that time and he told me that he didn't love me just so I could buy him the things he wanted to have.

Whenever I wanted to be with him, I would force him to go to me kahit na ang ibig sabihin n'on ay kailangan niyang i-ditch ang mga kaibigan, practice ng varsity, at ang mga klase niya para mapuntahan lang ako. I was so clingy and cruel that he got so tired of it and he broke up with me. Even his friends got angry with me. His basketball team was also mad at me. Their coach was always pissed with me.

Hinabol ko siya. I wanted to tell him so many things. Na gusto ko siya. Na ginawa ko lang naman 'yon kasi mahal ko siya. Na akala ko ba mahal niya ako pero bakit nagsawa siya?

Na nagmahal lang naman ako, bakit ako naging mali?

Na akala ko ba kapag nagmahal ka, tama?

I was too childish and unreasonable. The relationship wasn't healthy and I realized that I should stop. I realized that I was wrong. He didn't deserve that kind of cruelty. He was kind, gentle, and loving, yet I became a monster who destroyed him.

He didn't get the varsity scholarship he wanted from his dream university. He failed some subjects. He lost some friends. All because of me.

He tried to reconnect with me months after the breakup, but I realized that I was too guilty to even talk to him again.