Hurt//Jonah Marais { completed }

twenty eight

- 3 months later-

i woke up with my eyes swollen from crying. i cry so much. i got out of emilys bed. went downstairs to the kitchen to write some notes. the first one is to my family. i've been so depressed since rose left me. i cant live with myself. i cant. on with the notes

mom, dad, svea, and esther,
if you are reading this note. it means it's to late. i'm gone. the three girls that i live for are dead. and i want to be with them. just know this is not anyone's fault except my own. i put everyone through this mess. but now i'm taking myself out. to be with my girls. i love you all so much. remember i'll always be with you
- jonah 🖤

that note was for my family. now my other family. my boys.

boys,
if you are reading this. it's to late. i'm gone i've taken my own life to be with the three girls that mean the most to me. zach. oh zachy. i love you with all my heart. i know you are the youngest person in are group because you are a year under us. but i wanna say to you separately. i'm going to miss you and take care of yourself. i love you zach. and now daniel. this is not your fault at all. it's my fault. i just can't live like this ok? and none of you do this. ok? if you want to see my body for the last time. you can go to the river where people commit. that's where i'm going. corbyn just know that i love you. and jack just know that i love you too. i don't want to keep making music anymore i'm so depressed. i'm done with life. tell the fans i love them. i love you all
- your man jonah 🖤

i put them in envelopes walked to my house. out in the mail box and went to the boys house. we were all living together but i lived at emilys house. i got to there house and there was zach. my little brother. he's just what i need right now. he saw me. and had a big goofy smile on his face and waving. i ran to him and hugged him. if i could hug one person ever it would be zach.

"oh hello jonah" zach said

"zach i love you." i said

"i love you too man" zach said

"what time is it." i said letting go of the hug

"11:54" zach said

"please don't open this till 12. ok?" i said

"why?" zach asked.

"just please. i love you zach" i said i kissed his forehead and ran to the bridge.

i stood there at the end of the bridge.

"emily, sara marie, and rose. i'll be there soon." tears started falling and i jumped. i blacked out. but saw a light. when the light cleared up i saw two little girls looked like they were 4 years and an older one at a tire swing. the two little girls looked over and started to run over

"daddy!!!" one of the 4 year old said

"sara. hi" i said. i looked up and saw emily. i ran to her. gave her the biggest hug ever. "i love you" i whispered in her ear.