"The toughest decision I've ever had to make is whether to walk away or try harder. If I walk away, life won't be the same without him.... but if I try harder, I might end up fighting alone."
|A Harry Styles fanfic. | Situations in this work of fict...
Harry continued to glare into my eyes and I felt my walls I had been working so hard to build up lately, start to crumble around me. I was never going to be able to quit him.
"I'm so sorry.....so sorry....." he leaned his forehead against mine and sniffed as he continued to cry as did I.
I hadn't touched him yet other than letting him pull me into him only moments ago. I wanted to, but I couldn't, my body wouldn't move. It's like I had trained myself to resist him.
He slowly moved his hand just right at my side and closed it forward over my belly. His hand is so big it covered most of my stomach.
He sniffed harder and his breathing hitched, "I'm so sorry..." he whispered again.
I raised my face to look at him at this new feeling of his hand over my stomach....I could hardly focus through the tears still pouring down.... I put my hand over his.... "Harry, do you feel that?"
He opened his eyes and looked back and forth between mine....I picked his hand up and placed it lower onto my stomach.... "Right there...." I looked into his eyes as he stared at our hands.... That's when I felt it again....the baby moved and I felt it for the first time....
Harry looked back at me and his face glowed, "Was that?....Did the baby....Jordis? Did it move?"
I nodded and smiled..... "Wait...." I moved his hand a little higher.... again, the baby moved again....
"Oh my god....oh my god!" Harry smiled as tears kept falling from his eyes and he kept feeling for the baby to move again....
I watched him focus on my stomach so intently and my heart felt like it could burst. What was this? What are we doing?
He looked back up at me and cupped my face again, his hands covering the sides of my head, and his fingers through my hair....
I scanned his eyes back and forth and he quickly pressed his lips to mine.
К сожалению, это изображение не соответствует нашим правилам. Чтобы продолжить публикацию, пожалуйста, удалите изображение или загрузите другое.
I almost lost my breath at the contact. I hadn't felt his lips for so long, yet they were so familiar. The kiss wasn't fast, but it was full of passion and heartache. I'd never had him kiss me like this before. I gave into him and kissed him back after hesitantly questioning my sanity....he was it for me. We'd been through hell and back but he was absolutely it for me. He worked his lips over mine more feverishly as both our breathing became a bit labored. A part of me knew we had so much to work through that this was only the tip of an iceberg for us, but another part of me wanted to see how he planned on fixing this....did he want to fix this? Could we fix this? Was he with Kendall right now? I wasn't going to be that girl to her no matter how they'd done it me.
At that thought, I pulled away from his lips breathlessly, and looked at him. "Harry, what are we doing?" I whispered and questioned hurtfully...
"What do you want to do Jordis?" He looked back and forth between my eyes.
"What about Kendall....Harry I won't do this to her....." I admit honestly.
"Jordis do you hear yourself? Your carrying my child and you're worried about fucking Kendall? And no....I'm not with her. I never was. Not like what you're thinking."
He must have noticed the fear that was rising in me just thinking at the possibility that they'd been together...like really been together, because he used his thumbs to wipe away my tears and kissed me again quickly..... "I didn't do what you're thinking Jordis. I didn't. I could have but I didn't. Not with you haunting my every thought. He looked over my face, "I didn't". And when I listened and didn't fight away he began again, "Baby I love you, I never stopped. I fucked up time after time after time, and I'm not asking you to forgive me right now....I'm just asking you to remember, please? Remember how much you loved me, please?" He still hasn't released my face from his hands.... "Jordis, do you love me?"
"I never stopped." I say crashing my lips back into his, hard. There's no denying this incredible pull we have to each other. We can't escape it. I finally gather the courage to touch him and put one of my hands at his neck and the other on his fore arm where he is holding my face.
Harry ran his hand down my neck and the put other at my side just under my arm as to lift me....Never breaking the kiss, I climb over the center console, onto his lap while he lays the seat back, only slightly. I'm so glad my windows are tented and it's dark outside right now. Not exactly my most glorious moment but I'm not sure how to stop this.
He puts his hands on my hips as I lay mine on his chest, lips still locked together as I'm straddling him sitting on his lap in the vehicle. He glides his hand slowly up my back and it sends shivers up my spine. He breaks the kiss as he hugs me into him... "Can I just kiss you? I only want to kiss you, I'm just going to kiss you okay?" He whispers, "I'd never disrespect you in a parking garage."
Leave it to Harry to lighten an intense moment using a line from our first heated encounter. I couldn't help but giggle thinking back.
"So you do remember?" He says smiling against my lips....
"I won't ever forget." I push my lips back onto his as he swipes his tongue across my bottom lip wanting access, which was granted after earning a breathy moan from me. I felt him twitch under me as I'm positioned just perfectly over him and his tight pants that are growing even tighter there. Should this be happening?
At that, he digs his fingers lower into my hips and pushes me into his lap as he brings his hips up to mine.... I hadn't felt him this way since....since New York. He continued to work his tongue over mine and I couldn't help but gently rock my hips over him as the feeling was incredible. I remembered Lou mentioning in front of Harry's mum that pregnancy hormones were uncontrollable when it came to sex....we laughed but now I can see why....I couldn't stop, I didn't want to stop. And I wasn't sure if it was the hormones, my feelings for Harry and how our bodies reacted to each other, or both.
I kissed him down his sharp jaw and down onto his neck as he continued to push his hips up to meet mine.... "Uhhh....god baby.....I've missed you so fucking much...." Harry whispers holding onto my hips. His words only encourage me and turn me on even more as I continue my assault at his ear. He let one hand travel up my back on into my hair and pulls me back from his neck, his face flushed and his eyes full of lust.... "I want to take you so badly, right here, but I know it isn't the time...." he tilts my head just enough for him to kiss down my throat and as he does, I feel him so hard against my core. "Harry....." I whisper feeling almost high....
"I know baby....I know...." he says again at my ear as he licks and sucks there. Fuck, it feels so good. "Oh Jordis, ah...." Harry surprises me and he nestles into the crook of my neck and pushes up against me harder....the thin leggings I'm wearing are allowing me to feel him in all the right places and I can't help but rock onto him as I feel him throb into each push of his hips. I didn't think I'd ever come down like this but he has simply pushed me over the edge and I lean into where Harry is rested at my shoulders and rock faster. "Baby...." he whispers at my shoulders and he holds us still as I come down from my release...I feel him jerk and push against me again, letting me know he'd just came too. "Fuck...." he whispers and throws his head back pulling me into his chest....I use my hands to push away a little to keep pressure off my belly....
"Oh sorry....I'm sorry." He says as he puts both hands at the sides of my stomach. I can't help but love the way it feels for him to touch me like this. "You okay?" He says with his chest heaving up and down....
My breathing matches his, and I nod. He grabs my chin gently pulling back into a sweet and soft kiss. "Come home with me, please."
