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So, today was my field trip with my school and I. I uh had to stay with the nurse for like 6 minutes before we go back to school (we had 30 minutes left until we go back to school) this is the reason why

I had a overwhelmed attack. A major one, no one even dare to come over to me and asked if I'm okay. I literally had to go to my brother English teacher and tell her I needed help and I wasn't okay. And, what she did was take me to the Nurse. This is how she put it, (Side Note: My brother English teacher is my best friend and 2nd favorite teacher) "Jules, is feeling dizzy and having a overwhelmed attack. Sit Jules, I'll be where I was before. You will be okay I promise"

I couldn't even really speak about what happen, I was crying while drinking my cup of water

Once we got back to school,
I started to feel better, but still hurting. I pushed myself so far today

I found out 5 people (Yes 5) talked about me. Gossip,rumors, lies, and etc

Example: "Julia is so annoying"

I lost in total: 20 friends this year of school

What I had before: 25

Reasons why people aren't friends with me,
- I'm ugly
- I'm sad/crying girl
- I'm a depress girl
- I'm just a nobody
- Rumors people spread about me
- Lies people spread about me
- Gossip people spread about me
- I have a fear of being left alone
- People pretend to be friends with me
- And, Etc