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So, listen. I thought on talking/telling my story of what was my experience I knew I was bisexual/lesbian. Enjoy (beware of this long part) you may comment if you like on this part.

^~^ here we go. Flashback at the age 6 (please know I suck at spelling. And, me remembering what happen from long time ago)

Washed washed in my mind. Turning sideways on between my left and right. Staring blankly at the blue sky while the coldness hit my tan pale skin. Students walking to their friends or squad while I stand in the middle with my bag straps were on me. I held the straps tight. My guy friend walked up to me with this tan girl with dark green eyes and black long hair with a red pin in her hair. She was wearing cut out on the calves, jeans since it was cold out. Her black hair was swinging back in forth from the air. "This is Julia. My best girl friend. She is a sweet girl. Also, a funny one" My guy friend introduced me to the girl

"Hi there" I said mumbling to myself while feeling my heart beating fast like a car

"It is so cool to meet my boyfriend best friend" She said smiling at me and hugging me. Her chest was touching my chest. Everything was crazy in my mind. I didn't understood what was going on. She pulled back

Skip to later the night where I discovered I had feelings for girls
I had just finished dinner around 6:30. I had pajamas on while I started to climb in bed. Before I went to bed, I kissed my Stuff animal (which I still have today) Doggy on her forehead and whispered. "I love you doggy, sleep well" I held her softly then went to bed

In my dream,

There was that girl my best guy friend girlfriend. She was looking at me with my favorite color dress. Which it was blue. She was sitting down on a bench waiting for me to sit down next to her. I walked over to her and sat down next her

She touched my cheek while I started to blush deep red. I smiled at her. "What are you doing? You have a boyfriend silly" I said to her while she lean in and kissed me

I woke up from the dream. Thinking it was real. I looked around my room and notice I had school in 7 hours. I stared at the time. It was quarter of 12 in the morning, everyone was sleeping. I went back to sleep

This type it was different. It was more girls but only 2 guys. Girls kissing me then guys kissing me. It didn't even make sense at all. 1 dream was my best guy friend girlfriend but now it was girls. More girls then guys

The Next Day At School,
The girl was there. It was just her not my friend. I even thought A. They broke up, B. My friend got sick, or C. He is coming to school. She waved at me and I waved back at her. She walked over to me and grab piece of my hair and twirl it with her finger

"Is he coming today?" I asked softly while trying not to blush at her. She nodded yes then she touched my hand

She took a deep breath then let it out. "I like you Julia"

I smiled at her softly. "I like you too" right when she was about to kiss me

Her boyfriend aka my best guy friend appeared. "What the?" He ran and pulled us away from each other. "Stay away from my girlfriend! And, you stay away from Julia!" He grabbed her hand and left with her

Ever since that day. They moved away. I never saw them again. But, it is alright anyway. I'm okay after all, I hope you enjoy my story of how I knew I was bisexual/lesbian. Sorry if it was cliché. I was 6 years old when I found out I was bisexual/lesbian

- Julia