•the lied about boy•

chapter three

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Zena Zayd

The whole ride to Adyn's school the car has been filled with silence. Even the radio was on the lowest volume. Elyse tried to console me and tell me everything will be fine but she knows how I am. No matter what she says I won't believe it. She knows this is my biggest fear. It feels like my whole world is crashing down. What if he's in the city to look for Adyn? What if he has come to terms with having a child. But if he really cared he wouldn't have tried to pay me off to get rid of my baby. He got some nerve.

My heart hasn't stopped pounding in a rapid paste for the past 15 minutes now. I just wanna go home and sleep. Normally sleep helps me deal with a lot of problems but this time it definitely won't. It's not like he won't be here anymore the second I wake up. What stresses me out as well is the fact that I have to fill my mom in on what happened. She already has so many things to worry about. I snap out of my thoughts because of my sons voice filling the air.

"Hi mama, look what I drew today" He says all excited showing me a piece of paper with stick figures drawn on it

"Wow, it's so nice" I say taking the paper from him to examine it

"Hi Adyn, where is my hug?" I hear Elyse say behind me

The second Adyn notices her he gasps and runs into her arms. He also shows her the drawing he made. Elyse kneels down to his height and is looking at his bright colored in drawing as he explains what his inspiration was for his beautiful work of art.

"These people I drew are my family" he says pointing to the piece of paper

I smile at the sight of them two. He looks very excited to show off his drawing and Elyse looks really interested in what he has to say.

"So these 2 women are your mama and grandma and those 2 boys are you and Clyde?" Elyse asks

"No, that's me and my dad" he explains proud

The second he said that I felt light headed again. I'm sure that if I saw myself in the mirror right now, I would be as pale as a ghost. I got chills all over my body. I feel so sad for Adyn, he wants to have a dad so bad. Elyse her head immediately shot up to look at me. We're both shocked.
Neither of us know what to say.

"I think this is what our family would look like if he didn't die" he says holding the drawing close to his heart hugging it a little

My heart just shattered. As a mom you don't wanna see your child upset and you wanna give them everything they want. But at this moment i'm failing at both.

"Come on Adyn, we have to drop Elyse off at work, she's gonna be late" I say changing the subject

Elyse rubs his back in support and we both hold one of his hands to walk back to the car. On the way to the car we every now and then lift him off the ground making his laughs echo trough the street.

After we dropped off Elyse at her job I immediately stormed home to tell my mom everything that happened today. The second we entered the house Adyn immediately begged me to let him play outside with Clyde. I didn't even put up a fight and agreed immediately so the house would be empty and me and my mom could talk in peace.

Adyn and his friend play outside almost every day. They're fine to be outside all alone because they never proofed me otherwise. They usually stay in the neighborhood, go to the park or around the restaurant I work at. The owner is Clyde's uncle so I know they're safe.

Once I see Adyn leave the house I sit down on the couch and breakdown. The tears keep coming out, it feels like I can't stop. My mom practically runs over to me to see what's wrong. The second she hugs me tight and whispers 'are you okay' I feel the need to cry even more. No. I'm obviously not ok.