His Touch

1. Reminscing on memories.

Chapter One: Reminiscing on memories

　

“When your gone,

The pieces of my heart are missing you,

When your gone,

The face I came to know is missing too.”

-When your gone

Avril Lavigne

　

　

Avril Lavigne’s voice was the first thing I heard when I woke up, and her words were breaking my heart. “When your gone the pieces of my heart are missing you.” Her voice rang out and filled my room, theirs never been a more true statement I thought. At least her love could come back, mine never would. I managed to drag myself out of my warm cocoon of blankets, and walked into the icy abyss I called my bathroom. After relieving myself, I got into my shower and let the hot water relax my aching muscles, and washed away my worries.

I slowly stepped out of the shower, dried my self off and grabbed my bra and panties after putting on my things I threw open my closet and searched for something to wear. I chose a sea green peplum top with black lulu lemon leggings, and black toms. Then I simply tossed my hair up into a ballerina bun, and went downstairs.

“Good morning sweetie!” My mom said in her annoyingly perky voice. “Morning mom.” I replied their was no point in saying the good their were never any good mornings. I grabbed a fiber one bar, my keys, my bag, and got into my 1969 mustang. Turning on the radio my favorite song started playing That’s what it’s made for by Usher.

*Past*

I was sitting on the couch watching TV when Usher’s voice blasted through my house I turned around and all I see is Jake wrapped from head to toe in plastic wrap dancing to That’s what it’s made for by usher. I lost it falling off the couch in obnoxious laughter. “You think that’s funny, huh? Jake said. I couldn’t even speak I was laughing too hard so I settled for nodding. “I’ll show you funny.” he then pounced on me, and started tickling me filling the house with our laughter.

*Present*

A smile spread across my face at the memory, I missed him so much that it was painful. If the bad memories kill you, it’s the good ones that bury you six feet under I thought bitterly. A sigh escaped my lips as I pulled into the schools parking lot. This was the one place that I loathed with every fiber of my being, five months had passed since Jake’s death and I was still getting pity filled glances, they all disgusted me. Ignoring the student body I walked into my first class and sat down , people were starting to come into the class room, but one seat remained untouched Jake’s.

*Past*

I still remember his death like it was yesterday, we all sat in the waiting room, we all knew it was coming but we never thought it would come so soon. We all thought that he beat the cancer, but it came back with a vengeance eating away at his lungs worse than termites do wood. Tears streamed down my face at the thought of him being so much pain. “He’s asking for you.” The nurse said quietly as if she assumed this was the last time I would ever see him again, or touch him, or even hear him speak again. My breath hitched in my throat, as I walked into the small white room, and nearly burst into tears at the sight of him.

His beautiful tan face, was now almost as pale as snow and caked with sweat. His eyes had huge dark circles under his eyes, and his cheekbones were so predominant that he looked malnourished. “Babe.” He said so softly that it was almost a whisper. “Come here.” I walked too him and started to go to the chair beside him. “No, I want you to lay next to me.” “Jake-” I protested. “Please, don’t argue with me” So I laid down next to him on the small hospital cot.

“Baby, I know I’m going to die.” Jake said. “No-” “Shush.” he cut me off. “Please just listen to me, I’m going to die I’ve known this for awhile now, but I want you to know that I love you. I always will, and these last two years that I’ve spent with you were the best years of my life. You were my first everything and now you’ll be my last. Will you sing Kiss me, too me. I nodded unable to speak.

Settle down with me
Cover me up
Cuddle me in
Lie down with me
Hold me in your arms

Your heart's against my chest
Lips pressed to my neck
I've fallen for your eyes
But they don't know me yet

And the feeling I forget
I'm in love now

Kiss me like you wanna be loved
Wanna be loved
Wanna be loved

This feels like I've fallen in love
Fallen in love
Fallen in love

Settle down with me
And I'll be your safety
You'll be my lady

I was made to keep your body warm
But I'm cold as, the wind blows
So hold me in your arms

My heart's against your chest
Your lips pressed to my neck
I've fallen for your eyes
But they don't know me yet

And the feeling I forget
I'm in love now

Kiss me like you wanna be loved
Wanna be loved
Wanna be loved

This feels like I've fallen in love
Fallen in love
Fallen in love

Yeah I've been feeling everything
From hate to love
From love to lust
From lust to truth
I guess that's how I know you

So hold you close
To help you give it up

So kiss me like you wanna be loved
Wanna be loved
Wanna be loved

This feels like I've fallen in love
Fallen in love
Fallen in love

So kiss me like you wanna be loved
Wanna be loved
Wanna be loved

This feels like I've fallen in love
Fallen in love
Fallen in love

　

I could hear his breath starting to fade. “No Jake, please, please don’t leave me I love you. Please, Jake.” I screamed into his chest. “You can’t leave me, I won’t let you, I love you please don’t leave me.” I begged tears were rushing down my face like a water fall. I cried into his chest for hours before I could bring myself to let him go. I removed his arms from around me, and kissed his lips gently and walked out of the room. All the while kiss me by Ed Sheeran was playing through my head.

*Present*

A tear slid down my face at the memory and fell on the wooden desk before me, and I prayed to God for school too end.

 

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