For Outsidergirls
Izzy's POV
Pony and I were on a date. We've been dating for over four years now, I was sure that he was going to ask me to marry him tonight. However I was wrong like usual, I swallowed back the tears, when he handed me a card, that said "I love you." That's all it said. I smiled and managed to get out "I love you too..." I looked around at every other couple they all looked so happy. Then there was us, "Pony... I think we should take some time away..." I began "Like a vacation? You know I don't have much mon-" I cut him off "No I mean like away from each other..." I was breaking my own heart saying these words. He took both of my hands "Babe, No. I know this is hard with you walking all day and me working all night. But I want to work at us, You mean a lot to me. And If I lost you I don't know what I would do.
I sighed, and felt tears start to build up "I love you too Pony, But it's been four years. If this relationship isn't moving to the next level, then maybe it's time we move on. And I mean to different people." I said barely above a whisper. "I couldn't ever move on." He said, already tears running down his soft cheeks. I let only two tears fall. We paid for the cheek, and walked out to his car. We stood there hugging each other. "I don't want to loose you..." I whispered in his ear. "I don't want to loose you either.. Please stay with me..." He whispered. I pulled back from the hug and kissed him on the lips. "Pony I'll be 22 soon, I need to get married before I'm 30. and I don't know if it'll ever happen between us. I love you so much." I said barely above a whisper.
He got down on one knee "Will you marry me Izzy?" He asked I nodded. He kissed my ring finger. "I'll buy you a ring tomorrow. I promise let's just get home." He whispered. I brushed the tears off of my cheeks. And climbed into his car.The car ride home was awkward and silent. I had meant to tell him about my cancer. It had come back. I was dying. I wanted to tell him so badly but I couldn't. Once we reached his house, we got out of his car and walked inside. The gang had gone out for a movie, but Darry was on a date with his WIFE. I sighed and set down my purse and walked into Pony's room. I plopped down on the bed, and sat there trying to not to show the pain I was in.
On top of my lungs being on fire, I could hardly sit down with radiating pain all through out my body. I frowned, "You okay?" Pony asked from the doorway. I instantly put a fake smile on my face and laughed "You know how Coffee always hurts my stomach." I said trying to act happy and okay just for him. "That coffee kills ya don't it?" He asked smiling I nodded. He left the room to go get me some pills. I already knew they weren' t going to help. I made up this lie that Coffee hurts my stomach so he wouldn't know about my cancer. I hadn't ever told him the first time. He came back and handed me the pills then a glass of water. I threw the pills in my mouth and swallowed them down with a gulp of water.
I smiled so that way he'd leave me alone. He went into the bathroom and showered. I changed and went into the bathroom and brushed my teeth. I had a gut feeling this would be my last night with him, and I mean my last night in this world. My last time seeing his beautiful face, before you die you feel this sort of relief but this pain that's unbearable. Once we got settled down I closed my eyes for the last time...
Pony's POV
I woke up next to Izzy, it seemed like a miracle. I didn't hear her snoring. I just assumed she was fake sleeping. I got dressed and greased my hair up. I left for the jelwery shop. I bought a simple ring, but a beautiful. I got back at 12, I brought home food for the gang. I walked into the bedroom. Izzy was still asleep, that's really weird I thought. I shook her "Izzy get up.... It's 12..." I said before tickling her. No response. I started freaking out. Maybe she is just passed out. I felt for her pulse nothing. '"DARRY!" I shouted the tears building up fast. I could hardly see anymore, everything was blurry. The gang came running in, "She's dead..." I whispered. "What she can't be." Darry said.
He took her tiny wrist in his hand, and frowned and dropped it. "You're right Pony..." He said We quickly rushed her out to the car and to the hospital. They claimed her dead thirty minutes after, she was placed in a room. I sat there looking down at her beautiful pale face, her skin cold as ice, lips purple. I had been crying all afternoon, I couldn't stop crying either. The gang went back home, they pushed her body away from me. I stood in the room still looking down at were her body use to be.
They wouldn't tell me her cause of death, which made me kind of mad. But I wouldn't blame them. I wasn't her husband. I was her boyfriend. The next days were a blur, everything happened so fast, and I couldn't stop thinking about her. I hadn't even kissed her good night. I hadn't told her I love you before she fell asleep. "Pony, Don't blame yourself man." Johnny said before walking out of the kitchen.
I grabbed my wallet and left for the bar. I drank until I was numb, every swallow burned my throat. I loved it. I walked over to the lake where we first met. I threw a beer bottle into the water "I LOVE YOU IZZY WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME!" I shouted before falling to my knees and the tears poured down my face. I got up and started running, I ran to the bridge were I first kissed her, I stood on the edge of it "I can't live without you." I whispered before I jumped into the ice cold water. My body froze up, I couldn't move. I couldn't breath I struggled to swim, but it was too late. I was gone. I was going to join Izzy.
I don't know about y'all but I started crying just writing this. Anyways I hope you like it Izzy! (:
