Cupid | Jackson Wang ✓

twenty-four

Dear Jackson,

Thank you for ruining my life. Really, it was actually pretty fun. I don't want to blame you for why I did this to myself, because I don't, but I'm just saying that you shouldn't blame yourself for being so damn bad at your job. I hope you're not crying. You should be laughing. That was pretty funny. I did this to myself because my life was going nowhere. I didn't get to marry the man I loved and my career as an artist wasn't going anywhere. Nowadays, people love digital things more. Besides, it was so annoying having to deal with my mother's constant nagging and her breathing down my neck. People are stronger than others, but I've never been very strong. I act like I am, but I'm not. Haven't you noticed that? People who can easily defend themselves are usually the weak ones who are shielding themselves. Even if you didn't show up in my life, I still would have killed myself sooner or later. Thank you for keeping me company these past months. I'll never forget the day you took me to the field. Please keep the painting I drew that day next to the painting you drew of my high-heels. I'll come visit.

-Chanmi