What really is this life
I'm leading
I know not..
The life I've once lead
A fantasy,,
So far..
So new..
And utterly Greek
It was really mine?
I know not..
One look at me..
Then and now
Never did it failed to shatter me..
Am I the same old me??
I know not..
I ponder on why?
"Gift of heart breaks baby"
Destiny smirks..
Sleepless nights
Haunting nightmares
Long stretches of silence
Unknown fears
Numbness of hearts..
I never wanted..
Peaceful dreams..
Serene smiles..
Lightness of heart..
Is this too much to ask for?
I know not..
I distance myself..
Peace for my soul..
The walls around me makes me feel home..
Feelingless..
Robotic..
Maybe I am..
I don't want history to repeat itself..
Will I ever succeed?
I know not..
"Time heals all wounds"?
Bull shit..
Why does it still hurts
Like then?
Why does the raw pain
Strikes deep down
Like then?
Time really helps??
I know not..
"Smile" they say..
"Trust" they say..
"Believe" they say..
"Miracles do happen" they say..
But..
Do i really deserve a chance?
I know not..
Patience.. Patience.. Patience..
One thing I've mastered
Patience..?
Helps you?
Heals you?
I know not,,
What really helps?
When mind is struck
When heart is locked
And tears find there way..
When you have no way but to smile.. Simply smile
I pretend i dont care,,
I pretend im dumb
I pretend i dont expect..
Pretend nothing interest me,,
I pretend i dont give a shit..
But..
Deep inside ..,
It hurts..
It fucking kills.,
This isnt me,,
Pretending and faking??
Not my cup of tea..
Where is this game leading me?
I know not..
My wings??
Clipped.,
Dreams??
Long lost..
Confidence??
Frozen in fears.,
Smile??
Melted in tears
The same old "me"
Will it be back??
I know not..
Your sympathy I want??
Crap!!! Not my thing..
Care for me??
Nope.. Never
I have that fire in my soul..
Egoistic i am..?
Well maybe for u...
All I want is peace..
Not your fucking gossips..
Gimme that..
Can you all?
This question remains unanswered..
What am I doing?
I know not.,
Where will I end up being patient?
I know not..
Where am I heading?
I know not..
"Why am I even Alive??"
I seriously know not..
So peeps..
Like it ???
Allah Hafiz😘😘😘
YOU ARE READING
In My solitude..
PoetryU get broken.. a beautiful love blossoms ... it heals all ur damn wounds and pains away.. You go on living a beautiful ever after.. well this book isn't what the cinemas show.. that stuff is lie at its height.. The thins in cinemas might impress u...
