EVERYTHING!

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par reddiebear

par @reddiebear

dear richie,
i may come out to you today.
but the thought of you leaving
me -being disgusted
by me-,
horrifies me.
because you mean everything to me.
and what happens when you lose everything?
do you just have to build a new everything?
or perhaps all just falls.
and you are left with nothing.
nothing to love.
nothing to care for.
nothing to live for.
no reason to keep holding on, no reason to keep breathing.
or maybe you do keep holding on.
keep having hope.
having only a small bit of hope, but the hope meaning everything.
i hope i'll never have to find out.
maybe, something good will happen.
maybe, you are gay too.
no.
in a fantasy world, maybe.
but this isn't fantasy, is it?

from,
eddie, your biggest hoper.

ew this is the worst shit ever jhkgn