*December 16th, 2017*
It was winter.
Winter used to be a bright, white, chilly, snowy time of year.
With an endless supply of Hot Chocolate, movies, candy canes, shopping trips and smores.
It is not like that anymore.
Winter is now a dull, off-white, freezing, icy time of year.
With no sign of Hot Chocolate, movies, candy canes, shopping trips or smores.
There was no snow this year.
It always snowed.
The sidewalk was covered in a thick, gray slushy mess.
I waded through it... all the way to the cemetery.
I went to the twins graves and kneeled down.
I cleaned them up and placed some new items by them.
They would have been 18 today.
( Play the song )
"Hey, guys. I know it's been awhile since I last came here. I couldn't find the courage to come. I've been such a mess without you guys. I know you're watching over me saying stuff like getting OUT OF BED YOU SLOB! Or TODAY'S TUESDAY! Or I love you. God those three words that only we said to each other. We meant it. We were like brothers and sister. But you were snatched away from this world too soon. You never got the chance to show how amazing you were.
They officially opened the Dolan Memorial Corridor a few months ago. It's the one place nobody vandalized, or fought in, or argued, or littered. It is always calm and peaceful. We reminisce all the good time's everyone had with you. Football games, pranks, homework it didn't matter. Everybody loved you guys so much. You ran the school. You were the kings of the kingdom. And when you passed... initially the kingdom fell apart. Tear stained cheeks. I probably looked the worse out f everyone. Greasy hair. Untreated skin. Old baggy clothes. Bags under my eyes. They were so big they could carry the heavy the heavy groceries like milk.
I miss you guys so so much. Not a day passes by when I don't think about you guys. Everything can remind me of you. Our ice cream place. Our movie theatre. Our frozen yogurt place. Our houses. Our cliff. Where we sat for hours in a week. Listening to sunset lover. Watching the sunset over New Jersey. The quad bikes. Cliff diving. I will treasure these memories forever and ever. Happy birthday, Eteeweetee. Happy birthday Gray. I miss you guys," tears come from my cheeks.
I get up and as I do, two robins land on each grave.
I knew you were watching over me.
I know you always will.
