✅ Overprotective Brother// D.S, Z.H ✅

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I slam my door and automatically burst into tears... I lay on my bed and just cry and cry I locked the door cause I don't want anyone in here

I hear rushing upstairs and my door knob try and open

"Let me in please" Daniel says as soon as
"Please open the door"
"Open this door now"
"Okay this isn't funny anymore open the door"

Skip this part if you're sensitive to depression or mentions of suicide/cutting

At this point I don't care who's at the door but I know whoever it is, is about to see something they don't want to see

I get the safety pin that I've currently been hiding in case I've gotten to this low of a point in my life and contemplate using it.. the memories of moving into the house with the boys, all the good times we've had, and unfortunately all the bad parts come flooding in

I realize I have no family or friends who'll miss me I really only have one person and that is Zach

I have to be strong for Zach but I just can't I've had enough

The journey from where I am is a bumpy one... how can a fight about Jonah breaking his computer turn to me getting yelled at turn to me
getting kicked out and loosing everything to me wanting to die

I have no one that cares so what's the point

I close my eyes and clutch my left hand shut as my right hand opens the pin and slices it deep into my skin not enough to die but enough to pass out

I fall to the floor and just keep cutting with the pin... I'm starting to scream in pain as the reality all comes together today is the day I might die

"OH MY GOD OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW" Daniel yells clearly crying
"I SWEAR ON EVERYTHING IF YOU DONT OPEN THIS DOOR"
"GUYS GUYS COME QUICK PLEASE" Daniel yells down the stairs
"What's happening" I hear them say
"ITS JULIA SHES IN HER ROOM AND THE DOORS LOCKED AND SHES YELLING HELP ME PLEASE"
"Just leave Daniel... you don't care" I say out the door as I continue cutting all up and down my arm
"I DO CARE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH COME ON LISTEN TO ME LISTEN TO ME PLEASE I LOVE YOU PLEASE JUST STOP WHATEVER YOURE DOING PLEASE I NEED YOU WE NEED YOU PLEASE" Daniel says pushing at the door

I don't say anything and continue to cut my arms

"TALK TO ME PLEASE I NEED TO KNOW YOURE OKAY" he says continuing to push the door

Eventually, it Bursts open and the wood frame goes everywhere

He quickly runs over to me

"SOMEONE GET THE IT OUT OF HER HANDS" Daniel yells at the boys
"NO I NEED IT ITS THE ONLY THING I HAVE LEFT" I yell knowing this is my last chance to get out of everything

Jonah runs over and takes it out of my hand

"NOOOO WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT I HATE YOU" I scream crying and kicking at the loss of my final resort

"Someone call 911 please" Daniel says a little more calmly

"NO DO NOT BRING ME THERE I WANT TO DIE HERE" I say still kicking as Jack leaves the room to call

"You're not going to die you are going to be okay..."

"I DONT WANT TO BE OKAY I WANT TO DIE PLEASE JUST LET ME GO I HAVE NO ONE PLEASE"
"That is not true you have me, mom, dad, Tyler, Christian, Zach, the boys, you have so many people who care and would never want you to die"
"ITS ALREADY LIKE IM DEAD TO THEM THEY DONT EVEN TALK TO ME ALL BECAUSE OF YOU THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT"
"No zach talks to you"
"OH MY GOD ZACH WHERE IS HE!!! I WANT TO SEE HIM BEFORE I DIE PLEASE WHERE IS ZACH"
"He's in his room it's better he stays there"
"NOOO I NEED TO SEE HIM PLEASE I NEED HIM I NEED HIM SO BAD HES THE ONLY ONE WHO REALLY CARES"
"Okay we'll get him... Corbyn can you get Zach please and then can you call my parents"

Corbyn nods and leaves

He quickly comes back and I see Zach.. oh poor Zach he's been crying I can't believe I did this to him I don't deserve him

"OH MY GOD JULIA YOURE OKAY" he says walking in and taking me from Daniel hugging me

"Z-Zach"
"Yes"
"I-if I die do you promise to make sure Daniels okay.. I hurt him enough my whole life I don't want him to still be hurt after" I whisper
"You're not going to die I promise you but I also promise that if anything happens I will definitely make sure"
"I don't want to die... not when you're with me" I say crying into his chest after hearing the sirens from the ambulance and shouting from the people