Curvaceous Not Fat

Ja'hara

Against my better judgment I decided not to tell Ally them what was going on with Justin. All things done in the dark will eventually come to the light, right? I had a terrible feeling in my gut that I was borderline nauseous. I just that's because after deeming me to sick for school Ashton left to tell the gang and they all promised to come over after a day full of in-school. As soon as they were out of sight I called up Justin and told him it was safe to come over. He said to give him ten minutes to get rid of Lillian. I sighed a heavy okay and spent the ten minutes tidying up the very little bit of mess and warming up the taco meat I cooked last night. I was in the process of putting topping on them when a knock came at the back door.

"Come in!" I yelled from the counter. Once I was finished I turned to see Justin staring at me with a tired expression. I held the food up. "Hungry?" He only nodded as I went to work fixing him a plate. Soon we were sitting at the table stuffing our faces and laughing about nothing in particular. It was beginning to feel like old times. Then I remember this was a sneak visit. He wasn't suppose to be here and the gang wasn't here. This was nothing like the old times.

"I miss this."he says breaking me out of my thoughts.

"Miss what? You and me or the gang?" I answered harsher then I wanted.

"Both." He mumbled tears pricking the corners of his eyes. I felt a pang in my chest, but I had to stand my ground.

"You made your choice Justin." I said gathering my dishes as I rolled my eyes. He sighed as he stood and put everything back in the fridge.

"I don't think I have much of a choice Jay." I knew where he was coming from and how much this meant to him. We all did. We were in first grade together. It had been a year since he decided to take a chance on the chubby kid in kindergarten. He came to school one day crying. At recess he explained that his parents were getting a divorce. Of course we didn't quite understand him, until he said they were going to love in two separate house and he'd only see his dad on the holidays and some weekends. He was crushed all he knew was that his dad wouldn't be their every morning before school and every evening after school. Before I knew it I was hugging Justin and willing the tears to stay in my eyes were they belong.

"You're not him Justin." I whispered.

"I don't want to be him Jay. He had a chance and he just gave up. He barely sends cards anymore since he remarried. He gets to start over and he doesn't want me messing that up." I could feel his tears landing on my shirt just above my shoulder and my heart broke. My parents traveled so much like Ally's that it constantly felt like they were never here to begin with. I knew his pain to a certain extent.

"Justin it's his lost. He left you and misses out on what a great man you're becoming. Granted you haven't been all that nice lately. Regardless, your better then him because the child isn't even born yet and you're already putting him before yourself. I admire that and hopefully I'll find a guy as willing as you are one day. Maybe Ashton." I joked and felt the constricting muscles in my chest loosen slightly as he chuckled. My head was still on his chest as he hugged me a little tighter.

"He's not right for you Jay."

"And who is, you?"

"Maybe." I looked up at him to see if he was joking and was surprised to see a smile plastered on his face. Even though he was smiling he eyes told he serious. I felt as a blush crept onto my cheeks and I mentally slapped myself. I could feel myself leaning in and I could see him gradually getting closer,but I didn't bother to stop either of us. Quickly our lips were pressed together in a slow and passionate kiss. The longer we kiss the more the hunger grew. Finally pulling away I could see his eyes lidded and heavy with lust and my breathing just wouldn't come back to normal. Before I could grasp it his lips were on mines as he pushed me up against the counter.

His hands found their way under my tank top and gripped at my sides. I gasped at the feeling of the sudden cold penetrating the heat of my body. I didn't hesitate to raise his shirt over his head and smiled to myself as I noticed that it was a little more toned.

"Someone's been working out lately." I laugh. He barely mumbled a yeah before kissing me hungrily. Soon after my shirt was on the floor next to his. I pushed down the basketball shorts he was wearing and he was quick to step out of them. He moved us the counter and I found myself pressed against one of the walls as my shorts pooled around my ankles. I felt myself quickly becoming self conscious.

"You're perfect, beautiful. I love you." He said grabbing my hands that I was using to desperately cover my body and kissing my knuckles.

"I love you too." I admitted quietly as his lips found mines again. Still in our underwear we somehow detached ourselves long enough to make it upstairs to my bedroom. He was quick to push me backwards into the room and close the door behind us with his foot, his lips meeting mines with raw passion. I smiled as he pushed me on the bed and climbed on top of me.

"I'm so sorry for everything Jay. I didn't mean it. I never meant it. I love you and only you." He said between kisses.

"Its okay Justin. Just..." I sighed as I took his face between my hands and forced him to look at me. "Just make love to me already." The rest of our clothing was shed in record time before his fingers found their way between my legs and began to rub deep, rough circles against my clit. My back arched as I cried with pleasure. I felt as he pushed two fingers inside me without warning. I winced from the pain.

"Damn Jay, you're tight."he moaned.

"You're my first and only." I admitted trying my hardest not to look at him. He grabbed my face with his hard hand and forced me to look at him. A smile plastered on his face as he positioned himself between my legs. He leaned in placing his lips against mines as he began to slowly push in inch by inch. I gasped and winced a little as a bit of pain followed quickly by some pleasure flowed through me. He kept moving slowly until he was all the way in.

"Am I hurting you?" He asked much like the first time we did it. A warm sensation began to swell in my chest.

"I'm fine. Just kept going." He pulled out and pushed back in a little more roughly. His stroke getting deeper, but his pace never changing.

An hour later

"Oh my gosh! Justin!" I screamed as my climax took over my body. He kept going his strokes getting sloppy and rougher as he let me ride out my orgasm before he collapsed on top of me. He grunted as he pulled out and laid on side me and pulled me into his chest wrapping the covers around me. I snuggled up against him my sweaty forehead laying on his sweat covered chest.

"That was amazing." I yawned feeling exhaustion begin to take over me.

"Get some sleep. I'll set an alarm so I can leave before the gang arrives." He replied a smile in his voice. I nodded an okay.

"I didn't say anything. Its not my place. Once they've calmed down you can come over and explained everything to them."

"Thanks Jay."

"No problem." I said as he kissed me on my forehead.

"I really do love you." He whispered.

"And I love you too." With that I closed my eyes and drifted off to sleep. I now had to secrets to keep from my friends.