Shawn Mendes Imagines

Broken

Today it's been one month ago since he and I broke up. He really hurted me.

As I walk into the school building after 8 weeks of summer break I get this really scared feeling. Scared of seeing him again today.

I walk to my locker and put my jacket in it. When I suddenly hear some boys yelling I look behind and see him... walking into the school with his arm around another girl.
Well... another girl? More like the girl with who he cheated on me last month.

I close my locker and walk to my French classroom. A few seats are already taken. I take a seat in the back row. When almost every seat is taken there's an empty seat next to me. Shit.. Shawn hasn't come yet and I know he has to sit next to me. He's probably making out with her in the toilets. With this thought I roll my eyes and push his table a little away of mine so we won't sit that close next to each other.

The lesson is about to start and there he is. Unfortunately he's on time. I see him searching for an empty seat and he found the one next to mine. We have eye contact for a second but I immediately look away. He walks to his seat and sits down.
I look outside and feel his eyes on me from behind.

After a while he talks to me.
'Y/N...' he says. We look each other in the eyes.

'Can I...- can I borrow a pencil?' he asks.
I grab a pencil out of my bag and give it to him.

'Thanks.' he says.

***

The school day past by really fast. I go to my locker to grab my jacket and walk out of the building. As I walk over the parking lot I see them.
Shawn with his new girlfriend.
They're leaning on his car while they're kissing. His hands on her ass. Ugh, disgusting.

I honestly can't believe he cheated on me. And I also don't understand why. We had so much fun together, I really loved him and it also looked like he really loved me. He was so sweet, caring and gentle with me. We spended so many nights together and I always was there for him when he needed me. And then realizing I lost my V-Card to him. Ew.

But everything changed since last month...
I came to his house and that was the point where my heart broke in million pieces.
It looked like he didn't even cared about me. He didn't even called me that evening and he never apologized to me after that gross kiss with that bitch.

I realise now that I'm staring at them kissing. My thoughts were somewhere else.
'What are you looking at?' Shawn says.
I look behind to see if he's really talking to me or someone else.

'I'm talking to you, you dumbass.' he says. Damn. First cheating on me, now calling me a "dumbass". He changed a lot the past few months.

'Dumbass?' I yell angry back while I walk into their direction.
'I think the only dumbass here is you! you're the one who cheated on me with her!' I say with so much anger in my voice. I feel the tears already coming up.

'Can you just go away now?' she asks annoyed. I look for a few seconds in her eyes.
All I actually want to do is slap them both so hard and bring them into the hospital but I keep my anger inside me. After I give her the "bitch-face" I walk away from them.

I'm so fucking mad on him. I wanna slap him in the face but at the same time I wanna hug him so tight. I miss him. And I know my feelings for him are still there.

He just broke me in pieces. 💔

{continue part 2: Broken pt. 2}