To All My Old Best Friends

Dear Savannah,

When I was in the car with my grandma and uncle we ended up driving by your house. I wish you would have been outside and that we would have stopped. I would have really enjoyed seeing you. Well, and your siblings I guess, you guys were like my second family with how much I was over there. I wish things could have worked out differently, but, yet again I really don't because then we wouldn't be where we are now. And I'd still be back in that town and have very few friends. In those days you were really the only friend I needed, I'm not really sure if it would be the same, though. I kind of miss the way that I could talk to you about my hopeless crush on our old teacher,
Mr. P and you wouldn't judge me. (Yes I had a crush on my teacher, get over it.) I miss those days, believe me, I really do, but I'm not sure if I could go back to you being my only friend. I can't go back to being selfish and making you only hang out with me. It wasn't your fault I was awkward and couldn't make friends, but you could. I can't make you do that like I used to, I controlled you and I now know that was wrong.
    The girl you've probably forgotten, Mya ❤❤❤❤