~Thick tomboy~

«Regrets»

It's been a good while since I haven't had any social interaction and to be honest I liked it.. I still talked with Yoongi through texts but never talked in school or hang out..I always made excuses. Jungkook and Becky are still together having their best lives not bothering me, the other boys still texted me wondering what's wrong I guess he didn't tell them what happened that night...the night of regrets

"GOOD morning class! I hope you had a great weekend and you are ready for the test" The teacher told us, I got my pen out waiting for the test to arrive so I can get it over with since it was my last period.

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I was already done with my test so I just waited for everyone to be done with theirs so I can go home already.
"The time passed I hope you did to!" The teacher sand grabbing the tests back
"I will see you on Friday! You can go now" The teacher said right after the bell rang.. done for the day

*back home*

I saw a note on the fridge.. I guess my parents went on a trip again..fun.
"We went on a trip for some time, I hope you will be safe and don't starve to death! We love you!
~from Mom and dad
PS: Jungkook will come over to check up on you..don't kill him"

Great..just great, I have to see his face every day.. 'please don't check up on me Jungkook please don't'..
I grabbed my phone and went to the bathroom to take a shower
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I was in the middle of showering when I heard my front door open.. 'didn't I look the door? How? Does someone else have the key of the door?... please god, it cannot be him' my thoughts were interrupted when I heard a voice from downstairs..I stopped everything I was doing and listened to the voice
"Y/n?" It was him... the one and only person I didn't want to see today..
"Y/N?!! are you here?" Jungkook said walking towards the stairs.. 'SHIT.. my clothes!' I quickly went out of the shower wrapping a towel around me and making sure I am covered properly, I opened the bathroom door slightly to make sure he wasn't there, I grabbed my clothes and headed back to the bathroom. I was about to get in the bathroom but my bedroom door opens, revealing a worried Jungkook.. 'well shit' I slightly turned around with all my clothes in my hands trying to hold my towel still..
"S-sorry! I d-didn't mean to..! I will just go now!" Jungkook said backing away
"You should have knocked! What if I was having some 'fun' with someone,huh? You wouldn't want to ruin that, right?" I said looking at him
"There wasn't any noise so that was  impossible.." he said 'cliche'
"What if I was... nevermind. You can go I have to change" I said waiting for him to leave but he didn't leave, he just stood there looking at me..
"Can you stop staring, you perv!" I said slightly annoyed
"Don't you have your girlfriend to stare at?" I continued with the same annoyed tone
"She used me, that was all...I saw her making out with someone else, she doesn't know that yet.." Jungkook said
"But I will go if you want.. I understand" He continued with sadness in his voice
"I'm sorry...y/n" The same annoyed voice that made you hate yourself is now saying sorry..
"I will go now" He continued closing the door, I just listened to his footsteps fading away.. he is gone now.. he is. I went to my window looking at him walking to his house, he looked sad
I just brushed it off and went to sleep..

*next day*

It was lunch time..I didn't eat for two weeks, even with my parents back I still couldn't eat.. if I ate something I would immediately throw up...I don't know what's happening to me, i still look the same 'fat' but now my body is getting weaker and weaker day by day... my stomach is full all the time, full with regret.
"Hey Y/n! Why don't you eat?" A voice said making my head slowly look up.. it was Jin, why is he talking to me doesn't he know I am bad news?..
"I am not hungry Jin...I ate already" I lied
"You are lying y/n...I can see that" Jin said making my eyes widen
"What?" I asked
"Y/n" Jin said calmly "you look dead tired..it's way too obvious.." he continued smiling slightly..
"But" I tried to say but cut off by Jimin jumping next to me, what is happening?
"I missed you Y/n!!" Jimin was about to grab my cheeks but a sad expression appeared on his face
"Where are your beautiful chubby cheeks?" Jimin asked worried.. was it that obvious?
"Umm I.." I couldn't talk, my body was in too much pain... all the bruises were killing me, my stomach was killing me...
"Jin! What happened to her?!" I heard Taehyung come from behind.. why are they here? What is happening? I just looked at them confused yet tired
"Y/n is in big trouble.. she didn't eat anything these days..." Jin said looking at me
"two weeks.." I whispered hoping that they didn't hear me
"TWO WEEKS!! HOW ARE YOU STILL ALIVE!" Jin screamed making everyone jump. 'I am in big trouble' I thought as I looked up at Jin who was now calling the rest of the boys to bring food..
"Jin you don't have to" I said "I am not hungry" I continued
"Don't Jin me! You ARE our responsibility! HOW DARE YOU NOT EAT! ungrateful child" Jin said making me laugh a little.. then the pain hit me, I could barely laugh, my body was in pain..
After some time everyone was sitting at my table..waiting for me to eat, I couldn't do it..
"Eat! Don't make me feed you!" Yoongi said
"But I can't eat.. I am not hungry" I complained once again..
"No buts! Eat that now!" Jin said waiting for me to eat..
"Is our not so little girl starving? Poor you..or should I say two of you?" Becky appeared out of nowhere..
"Jungkookie... why are you with this loser? Come play with me..I am bored baby..." She continued making everyone angry.. even Jungkook..
"Leave us alone! I was trying to eat but you disturbed me and my friends" I said clinching my jaw.. man was she pissing me off
"Your friends? Do you actually think they are your friends? Them? Friends with..You?" Becky said making Jungkook jump from his seat
"That's enough.. no one asked for your stupid opinion. Now would mind and go fuck some else? Actually continue doing that.. I saw you with that guy, we are done. Goodbye" Jungkook said makings her eyes widen.. 'GET THAT YOU BITCH' I thought giggling slightly
"Baby.. I love you, I wouldn't cheat on you" She continued with her lies making me grab some food so I can enjoy the show..
"Don't baby me, it's over. I am done with your lies" Jungkook said
"I will kill you Y/n! You took him away from me...you will see what's next" she said
"Enough, goodbye" Jungkook said while she walked away
"Man I was enjoying that show... 'Baby I love you..' HA good one" I laughed grabbing another biscuit..I looked at everyone with my biscuit in my mouth smiling slightly.. they were are smiling
"What-" I was cut off
"SHE FINALLY ATE! EVERYONE PAY ATTENTION SHE FINALLY ATE FOOD!!!" Jin yelled making everyone in the cafeteria staring at him.. I ate? I didn't throw up?
"I ate? I ATE?!! I ATEEEE" I said joining Jin, everyone was looking at us like we went crazy.. we kind of did..
Jin and I stopped jumping and hugged each other, I was happy that I ate and didn't throw up..
"Y/n... I want a hug too" Jimin said shyly opening his arms
"COME HERE SON!" I said hugging him tightly, he hugged me back
"Y/n-shiii! I WANNA JOIN!" Taehyung and Hoseok said in unison then they both joined the hug..I pulled away smiling like an idiot
"Where is that lil meow meow at?" I said looking for Yoongi who was hiding behind Namjoon..
"Come here kitty kitty!! Come to mama!" I said while Namjoon moved away letting me hug Yoongi.. he hugged me back messing my hair a little
"First I am not a kitty! Second I am much older than you" He said letting go.. I looked at him and smiled, I went to hug Namjoon.. i don't know why we had to make such a big deal out of me eating food but we did and we enjoyed it.. I looked at all of them when I met his eyes, I didn't hug him.. he was just sitting there smiling slightly at how happy everyone was.. his sad eyes couldn't lie, he was heartbroken..he really was, he didn't even said a word to me...he didn't even complained that I didn't hug him.. yet he was still happy that everyone else was, I smiled and went straight to him.. his bambi eyes were sparkling, I got closer admiring his beautiful features..every inch of his face was beautiful even his little imperfections were beautiful...everything about him was pure beauty
"I forgot to hug you.." I said shyly
"I know...you don't have to, I don't deserve it..I am sorry y/n" Jungkook said with pure sadness in his tone, I nodded and smiled
"I know, but you deserve a hug...you deserve much more than just a hug and I am sorry as well.." I said making his eyes go wide
At this moment I didn't care if we were in the cafeteria and everyone was looking, I didn't care if the other guys were wandering why am I taking so long to give him just a hug, I just cared about Jungkook and our friendship..
"I will always forgive you..as long as you forgive me" I said smiling slightly
"Y/n... thank you" Jungkook said smiling
He pulled me in a hug, I hugged back immediately..every regret I had is long gone..

He really is my home...

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Long chapter I know..I felt generous. I hope you liked it! First week of school is done.. wish me luck for the rest lol (sorry for any mistakes..)

I luv you all💕

This then...BUH BYE