BORN AWAKE

Chapter 2

I am hurting all over. My mother beats me. I have never told anyone but it really hurts me physically and emotionally. She only does it when she is drunk she slaps me, punches me, and even burns me. One time she threw me outside in the pouring rain I had to ask the neighbors to let me sleep there. Of course they said yes but they were kinda sketchy because I can't trust anyone sadly. They were really nice. My mom came and pounded through the door and grabbed me by the hair and dragged me out of there. She attacks me. I think she is a beast some days I don't fight back because there is no use. My mom uses me like everyone else. I am lonely the only boy I liked left me and used me. He never talked to me again but I still love him. He was the only person I actually loved. I want my mom to die. To get ran over. To jump off a bridge. To get hit by a car. To drown. I want to make her feel what she made me feel. I give up on loving anyone. I could die and no one would notice. My mom would because I am her toy. I am a toy for her to hurt. I am her toy to chew on. I am a t o y. I still want to find my dad. I think he doesn't want me. Who's care no one does. I give up.