Random Conversations

Part 18 ~ To Jasmyn

So its like 1 am and I can't sleep so I'm pretty good at writing my feeling down and I know Jasmyn loves when I do these things so this one is for you.

Jasmyn, a different type of girl, someone who I'm not scared to show the real me too. Someone who I can confide in as a person, someone I will never take for granite.

A few words that pop into my head when I think of her are outgoing, carrying, funny, sweet, charismatic, loving, and beautiful.

This girl has been my best friend for only two months, but it only feels like two days. She's the best part of every day.

When I wake up shes the first person I wanna talk to, and right before I go to bed she's the only one I wanna say goodnight too.

This girl typed her way into my life, and I pray to god she keeps typing and doesn't hit the delete button.

I swear this girl will one day be the death of me. She's literally the only person I wanna talk to day in and day out.

The day we meet, I will hereby promise to make a vlog type video, showing both of our perspectives, up until the moment we met.

She is my Soulmate, everyone says that your soulmate is someone you want and need to be with for the rest of your life. Well, this girl is my other half.

She's my best friend and the only girl who was ever willing to put up with my shit and never talk behind my back.

This girl will never fuck me over no matter how hard things get, I may not be her main priority and that's fine with me, but she will always be my main priority.

Sometimes I feel as if I bug her as if one day will just up and leave like everyone else. I'm not that popular kid everyone loves, I was always bullied on everything.

I was the most unpopular kid at school, so I never had friends. I never had anyone but my mother to confide in, but even after a while, she turned her back on me.

Jasmyn has no idea how much she has impacted my life, how much she has changed it, without even trying.

I was always that girl who was too big to be on the cheerleading team, to big to fit in, too ugly to be with the popular kids, I was that girl with anxiety and suicidal tendencies. I was that girl that was an easy target because she was so shy, she would just take it all and never say anything.

I was the girl who cut because of how bad the words got to me, I was the girl who cut more because they made fun of her scars.

But to Jasmyn I'm Skyler, the girl with crazy hair, the girl who loves to talk to her, the girl who would literally give her life if Jasmyn needed it.

So when you read this Jasmyn, just really think about how much you mean to me.

When I say I love you, it means more than just saying it. It has a deeper meaning.

I love you for being you, I love you for always being there for me even if I didn't want to have anything to do with anything they day. I love you for not giving up on me. I love you for showing me that passion for writing we share. I love you for texting me first thing when you wake up. I love you for being the last person you text before you fall asleep. I love you for keeping me updated in your life since I can't be there to see it.

I love you for letting me cry and talk about everything. I love you for supporting my life decisions. I love you for them weird Storytimes you tell me. I love you for showing me the real you, most importantly, I love you for you, when the corn or of your eyes crinkle when You smile or how focused you get while writing or doing school.

I love you Jasmyn, never forget that(:

DanielSeaveysCello