love me or leave me

its always been you

emily's POV, outside hanna's house

i've been sitting in my car for a solid ten minutes worrying about what hanna is going to ask me. i have a sinking feeling it's not going to go well.

as i knock on her door i hear footsteps on the stairs

'hi, come in' she says. i can tell she's been crying.

not saying anything i walk in.

'do you want a drink? sit down' she tells me more like a command.

'water would be fine' i say.

it's so quiet and awkward.

'so, where's you mom?' i ask trying to break the silence

'she's in new york with ted, they're staying there for a while.' she sighs

it goes silent for about five minutes

i notice hanna crying as we're sitting on the sofa.

'are you okay?' i ask worried wiping her tears away with my thumb like i did when we were dating.

'emily..' her voice breaks

'what is it' i say 'why are you crying?'

'i miss you, so much, like you don't understand how much. you make me feel butterflies. but i feel like you still have feelings for alison. it hurts me knowing that one day you would pick her over me.' she admits

'hanna, it's you, it's always been you' i notice i'm crying too.

hanna stands up abruptly

'i'll be back in a second' she goes up to her room

as i wait a look around and see a picture of me and her on her mantelpiece. it was whenever we went to the carnival. that was such a good day.

'i got this for you, i was going to give it to you whenever i came round but you know' she sits down.

it was a necklace with a 'h&e' engraved on it in a heart shape.

'hanna this is so beautiful, i love you so much' i say

hanna looks at me in the eye giving me a weird look.

'sorry i didn't mean to say that.' i realised i said i loved her.

'did you mean it?' she asks moving closer

'of course i did' not breaking eye contact

i move in closer

'emily' her voice breaks turning me on

i move in closer. my face is millimetres away from hers.

in the blink of an eye hanna pushes me on the sofa and gets on top of me.

hanna's POV

i don't know what came over me but now i'm taking off my shirt

emily lets out a moan.

'heyyy!! let's partayyyyyy!' spencer says coming in the door with food and alcohol

'oh shit sorry i didn't know emily was here.' she apologises.

i put my shirt on and get up quickly.

'wait, does this mean?' she asks

emily stands up and looks at me.

'no' i say

spencer gives me a confused look.

so does emily.