Finding You

Chapter 25: Valuable and Vulnerable

As he expected, Alex was fucking ecstatic about the new album. She was so excited that she was pretty much screaming everything in caps and it just made him feel so happy. Despite how much he had expected it, he could not get over just how warm her reaction made him feel. It was the same kind of warmth that holding a hot mug of tea or cocoa brought when it was freezing outside. It was comforting.

All of her new reblogs were about the album. Despite being so tired from promotions, he liked reading what she thought and he wanted to talk to her about it. Specifically, he wanted to know what she thought of Dead Leaves. He wasn't so sure why that one stuck out for him, but he remembered writing it just after he saw her blog for the first time. He wanted to know what she thought of it. And so, he was going to ask her.

[Sent at 8:27 PM]: alex~ i see you listen to the new album. what did you think? what you think about suga's song?

While he waited for her to get back to him, because it was still the early morning for her, he went to read over some of her tags more carefully. He had turned in earlier than everyone else and now he was tucked into bed at 8:30 on the dot, but he didn't mind. It gave him some privacy to talk to her. Not that he really needed it seeing as none of it was done out loud, but that was beside the point. He just liked not having to worry about anyone asking questions.

Her first three posts were all pretty hyperactive and about him in general. However, her tags on one of them, particularly about Run made him happy. She approved of their willingness to try new sounds and explore music in general and it felt nice to read. Some of their fans didn't always think that way but Alex was always so open minded to music. They had many discussions and she had told him that she wasn't unwilling to listen to really anything.

He wanted to ask her more about that. Specifically, he wanted to ask what made her so willing to just enjoy new things without fear or holding herself back by needlessly judging. So, he stood and waddled to his desk, the cold making his legs quiver a little bit. He grabbed his journal and then dashed back into bed, shivering slightly. This was more of something that they could talk about in person, so he'd add it to the list.

The list of topics for conversations with her was more than two pages long now with over thirty-eight ideas written into its margins. The more they talked, the more he got ideas to write down and he was sure by the time Alex actually got to Seoul, if she secured the recommendation, it would be embarrassingly long. But Yoongi didn't care. He wanted to know her through and through. He wanted to ask her every question he could think of and then some more. He wanted to talk until he couldn't think of anything else to say and then just hold her afterward. Yoongi had never felt such a desire to know someone so utterly thoroughly.

After he finished writing down the idea, he tapped his pen on the notebook and bit his lip, planning to return to look at more of her blog. However, before he could get far, he heard the familiar sound of the messaging system. He switched over and saw she had replied and smiled to himself before he even read what she said.

[Received at 8:42 PM]: AUGUST, IT'S AMAZING. I LOVE THE ALBUM SO MUCH.

[Received at 8:42 PM]: Hehe. Hello~~

[Received at 8:42 PM]: I am still waiting for mine to come in the mail. I ordered the blue version.

[Sent at 8:43 PM]: hi. what is your favorite song? is it sugas? ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

[Received at 8:43]: Hahaha, very funny there, sir. >_>

[Received at 8:43]: I don't know which one is my favourite. They're all so good. T-T