PERSONA, misc

please

I struggle to breath in the air I wish I didn't have. I struggle to tell myself that I'm strong, and that I can get through anything if I put my my mind to it.

I struggle to cry the tears I've become numb to. and then the floodgates open and here I am crying in the late am hours.

I am weak.

And I believe my mind.

I'm so tired of not feeling alive. I'm so tired of being apathetic. I'm so tired. And I don't have enough reasons to continue on.

Please take me kindly.

There is nothing to forgive.

I am sorry for the disappointment I've created. I am sorry that I have not satisfied you enough. I am sorry that I no longer wish to continue speaking to you.

I don't want to speak with you.

I am in the arms of death so please take me but take me kindly.

I need to become nothing in the arms of the woman who has been with me my entire life. I need to be in her arms as I fade away and I want her to watch me as I struggle to mumble out the words I love you.

I want the world to witness what a strong person I am.

And that is nothing.

I am a hopeful person. I've not lost all cause.

I believe what you say to me.

please numb my mind.

I hope the snow falls. I can't wait until that day.