i smelled a smell today.
every time the bus stopped i got a waft of cologne. it smelled like your cologne.
i was brought back to the countless times i hugged you and depending on how tight and how long i held you, your smell would transfer onto my shirt too. i loved that.
that's what i smelled today.
i cried today.
i thought of the countless times i got to hug you and the times your scent would leave its trace on my own clothing.
i cried because i don't get to hug you anymore.
because i don't get to smell of you anymore.
i remembered your back under my arms today.
i remembered your chest under my cheek and your chin atop my head.
i remembered your arms around my back and the way you swayed with me still in your arms.
i felt broken today.
i feel broken today.
