the songs my voice shouldn't sing

part 2: abandonment

*no really, I'm dying*
I get off the bus
The half an hour journey
Was worth the wait
This place was great

This place was great
But only great because you've here
It's as if the smoke clouds were just
A calming rain cloud ready to bring something new to our day

It's been 10 minutes and I'm dying
Of anticipation
For I haven't seen you in so long
Waited so long to hear your voice
Feel your hands, have your hug
You have me at my calmest
Mr heartthrob

20 mins, maybe you got lost?
How could you be lost though,
You live here
You want to see me
I know you do..

25 mins, I send you a text
"Where are you"
I say
"Running mate, be about 30 mins"
But it's okay though. He likes me!

Another 10 mins go
I wonder if you even remembered
That we were going to meet
I was sure yo7 were as exited as I
But perhaps not?

I know my heart pounds when I think of you
I know my head lingers for even the mere sight of you
Tue seconds were getting longer.

I'd sat and done nothing for 2 hours.
He's an hour and a half late
So I go to a charger, charge my phone
"I can't come, sorry"

That's partner for: I forgot you.
And I was at the bus stop.
Alone.
The cloud of smoke was a rain cloud
But this rain wasn't calming

It thundered down on me
Crushing me.
Taking over me.
The next bus is 16 mins

It's cold.
I don't feel anything.
Possibly because you'd prefer to be away from me.
But that's okay.
Im used to it
Though perhaps, Mr heartthrob
You'd give me a clue you didn't care

Would have been more fare.
Atleast I would have maybe brought a coat with me to battle this storm?
But I've lost the battle

I sat at the bus stop.
Feel like crying.
Dome trying.
Really, I'm dying