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Diary.- Multiple POVs

(A/N: Y'all I am stuck as far as dialogue and what not goes so I'm just gonna do a diary style chapter in which everyone pretty much shares what they're thinking? idk if it's gonna go over well lol please bear with me.)

Dear Diary,

Today was difficult.  I haven't had a "junior" yet.  It seems like Yui's going to have all hands on deck for a long time.  I remember when I first came here, I was so thankful that everyone's hands were on my deck for so long.  Even though she's older than me, I know that I can help her.

I got kicked out when I was only fourteen years old.  Most people don't come out at that age, but I knew who I was- err, am.  I still do.  Marina-chan and Rau-chan helped me solidify that.  They gave me a home, gave me my life back.

And now, I want to do the same for Yui-chan.  It's what she deserves.

-Saki

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Dear Diary,

How did I end up in charge?  I'm not the oldest one here.  Why did Ayami put me in charge of the newcomer?  I can't handle this.  To their knowledge, I was still self harming two months ago. It's been more recent, only about two weeks or so.  Nene-don doesn't know, of course she doesn't know, I wouldn't want to worry her with this.  It's my problem, not hers.  It's fairly easy to slip by her- just make some excuse about how I'm feeling insecure so we cannot bathe together or how I accidentally nicked myself shaving, cutting fruit, the list goes on and on.... 

But I'm genuinely scared.  For her, and for me.  I know it's selfish being worried about myself when Yui is hurting, when there's obviously more pressing matters to be attending to.  But I can't help it.  I wish I could make this all go away.  Maybe I can.  I just have to cut ties with Nene-don first.  Leave her mad at me so my death doesn't hurt her so much.

I know it's selfish, but Yui will survive.  Ayami will help her.  Raura and Marina will help her.  Su and Ayaka and Airi and everyone will help her.  She's going to be okay.

And soon, so will I.

-Hinata

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Dear Diary,

The newcomer scares me a bit.  Reminds me of me when I first came here.  Our stories are eerily similar, anyways.  Ayaka-chan and I have been friends since we were very young, so of course I went to her when I was kicked out.  And of course she dragged me here.  Back then, there was a whole different set of elders here.  Yuika, Himeka, Erika, Yumi, they all knew what to do.  I don't.  And now I have to lead this fragile child who is so much younger, who has problems I can't begin to comprehend.  I don't think I can do it.

Ayaka was so kind earlier.  Even when Yui-chan mixed up our names, she didn't mind.  She wanted to see Yui-chan so badly, especially when Ayami came down demanding that Hinata get up there, but Ayami wouldn't let her.  Who died and made Ayami-chan boss?  Not me, that's for damn sure.  She acts like she's in charge.  She's not in fucking charge.  She made my girlfriend cry for fuck's sake.

Ayaka will get to see Yui-chan.  That's a fact, and I don't care what I have to do to make it happen.

-Airi

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Dear Diary,

People must think I'm some kind of control freak.  I'm sorry that I'm overprotective of the newcomer.  I can't help it.  She's so young, so adorable.  And I'm scared for her.  She's just like Hinata.  Except somehow, worse.  Hinata wasn't this fragile when she came if I remember correctly.  I wasn't in charge back then- Himeka was.  She came here with Suzuka when their parents kicked her out in a walk of solidarity.  I looked up to her.  I was in awe of her.