The Life of Julie Gardner

The Argument

I hear the door crack open and I know my mom is home. I jump out of bed and run to my desk as I throw a notebook on my bed changing my laptop screen from Netflix to The Great Expansion paper that's due next Friday. Luckily I get my pencil in hand right on time as my mom opens the door and says it's time for dinner.
"Alright, one second, I gotta finish this paragraph"
"I love how your working and being productive" she gleams and I get a hunt of guilt and sadness that I deceived her. I'm the best dam liar I know. Feeling more hungry then guilty I head to the kitchen to eat whatever I see first. When I head to the kitchen I see Roasted Chicken, mashed potatoes and corn on the cob. I begin to get excited that my mom actually made something I like and rush to get myself a plate. After I get the my plate and fill it up with a warp heap of food and sit at the table and devour it. My mom looks at me questioningly and I realize wI forgot to say grace
"Sorry mom" I say not really meaning it
"It's alright but you got to say it for us now"she responds. Ugh do i really have to though it's so annoying
" Fine" I say reluctantly
"Dear lord please bless this food we are about to eat, Amen" I say
She smiles at me pleased which me a so can go back to stuffing my face. After my plate is clean and finished she brings out a large white envelope. I realize it a college application and I squeal. I rip it open and I see the college it's for, University if Albany. This is the school my mom wanted me to apply for. And it says.....
"Congratulations" Julie you have been excepted to the honors program at U Albany...."
This made my heart sink and my moms face curve into a smile. This is not the school I wanted to go to but now that i got in its all my mom will want to talk about
In a quiet voice I say " Mom it's great that I got in but I really don't want to go to this school"
"But it's where I went to school and where you will go to study as well"
"Mom I need to make my own choices and this is not one of them" I say harshly
"Julie we have talked about this and you agreed to go to U Albany like me.
"We I'm not going" I say and storm back to my room planning on ignoring her tomorrow.
When I get back to my room I flip on my bed and put music into my ears, my eyes eventually close and I'm off to sleep.

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I wake up at 4am realizing that I definitely went to bed too early in my rush to get away from my mom and escape the reality of my life. All I really wanna do is drown myself in binge watching fav shows and eating junk food but I have school tomorrow and there is no junk food presently in this goddam house. I try to go back to sleep but fail and end up looking at the ceiling like an idiot for the next two hours before I have to get up for school.
My 6 am alarm rings and I groan not wanting to face the day and the people in it. I put my Spotify on shuffle and Pinks song "so what" comes on. This fits my mood perfectly so I leave it on for my morning routine. I put on some makeup quickly and throw on an outfit. I make myself late so I don't have to face my mom this morning. When there is only 2 mins until the bus comes I start running down the stairs
"Julie" my mom calls
"Bye, I'm gunna be late to the bus" i say and run out the door making the bus right on time.