My Past Was Meant To Be Hidden

Trying not to give up!

It's been a year <I> A WHOLE FUCKING YEAR! </I> no one has come to save me, I mean dad or drake should of realised by know who took me, I understand with Bellamy because he didn't know about trey and I bet dad nor drake bothered to tell him just ignored him and Sebastian, I looked at Eric and Evie who where still sleeping peacefully, it's the only time they are relaxed so I let them sleep.

I can't sleep well anymore, I just get nightmares about everything that's happened, everything that Trey has done to me, every time I wake myself up screaming for someone to help me, I have no energy to fight back, bread and water does nothing, I'm as skinny as Eric and Evie when I first got here, I'm starting to think everyone has forgotten about me, what's the point anymore?

My mind thinks back to Lexi, she is probably going crazy without me, ruby and Sebastian are growing up without there big sister, Bellamy and sandy are probably going grey with worry and stress.

Dad and Drake, well I don't give a fuck about them right now, if they saved me right now i wouldn't care, I mean they obviously didn't care enough to try harder, after every thing that's happened over the past year ... They couldn't do anything to make up for it, they said Trey wasn't a threat, they didn't believe me, they're to dumb to realise, I'm obviously not important enough right? <I> I wish my mom was alive, she would of found me in less then a hour, she would never have gave up </I> I sighed, and layer back down Evie and Eric are the only reason Im actually coping, their hope makes me hope, they are a year older then me, I should be in my last year of school right now while they should be in collage, or in university as us English like to say.

Eric and Evie woke just before the guard came in <I> no! I've had enough I don't care if I'm weak , I'm most probably going to die anyway, might as well die trying </I> I pushed him into the wall, shocking him, giving me enough time to grab his gun and place it to his head and then waked the end of the gun over his head so he was out cold. Trey laughed making me jump then spin around to face him,

"Wow Ella, I wondered when you would show the real you" I turned and pointed the gun at him

"I fought back, my mistake was believing I would get away one day, now I'm not afraid of death, might as well go down with a bang" he chuckled

"Yes you did fight back, your never did stop until I drugged you enough so you couldn't move but could feel everything I did to you" I flinched recalling every memory, he smiled evilly knowing what I was thinking,

"You know kitten, I think it's time to put you down" I just started until he brought a gun out, Evie gasped and Eric spoke with panic lacing in his voice

"Shot him now Ella!" I ignored him going in my own stare down with trey, then I moved so it looked like I was giving up then shot his hand with the gun, he cried with pain the stumbled to get the gun put I shot both his legs, and kicked the gun away

"How does it feel to be the weak one Trey?" He glared up at me

"You won't get away with this Ella, my men will kill you before you get out" I laughed

"So, I mean I would die happily knowing I was the last one you seen, knowing I was the one that killed you" he spoke with humour and pain

"Looks like I did brake you, your heart has frozen, your just an empty shell, might as well join your mother theirs nothing left now" I shot him in the head, Eric and Evie gasped, I collapsed <I> I killed someone, I... I j-just killed him, oh my god, what have I done </I> Evie spoke while Eric hugged me

"It's okay Ella, you did it to save us, he pulled your last string and you retaliated" Eric spoke as well to try make me feel better

"Yeah Ella you have saved us"

They nodded and slowly as well as quietly followed me out, once we got to the garage to see it was open with one car left, I smiled half heartedly <I> wow that's lucky </I> we got in the car and I drove back to Brian's office, I walked to his door hearing shouting on the other side, Eric and Evie followed me, Bellamy was shouting at Brian, my dad and drake, I could also see threw the tiny gap Jake, James and Nate standing by Bellamy,

"Jeffrey! How could you call off the fucking search!" My dad sighed and Drake spoke

"She's gone Bellamy, just let it go, she's died" Bellamy went to hit Drake but jake held him back and James spoke

"She's tougher then that! There's a 50% chance she's still alive!" Brian laughed

"After a year? She's died just get over it" Nate spoke

"So you are all giving up! Your meant to be her dad!" Dad shouted

"Get out!" Beforehand they could I slammed the door open and walked in with Eric and Evie following me, I fake smiled

"Wow dad I thought you would have more faith in me then that, and you know what? I thought out of everyone here you would find me, I had to save myself! Not even my own father, boss of the most dangerous gang could save me" drake spoke

"E-Ella?" I glared at him

"And you! I thought you would have realised Trey was the one that took me, are you really that dumb, you know I waited for you as well , my knight in shining armour to save me" I laughed with no emotion

"So naive right?" I turned to Brian

"And you, you have kidnapped me before, and you didn't think I could handle it, I mean the only reason you got me to brake down was because you pointed a gun at someone special to me" he looked down, Bellamy couldn't handle it anymore, he ran over to me and hugged me as tight as he could

"Omg Cassie! Omg omg omg, I was so worried, and these dumb arses wouldn't tell me anything said it was fucking classified, my sister went missing and it was classified, idiots they're idiots" I collapsed into his arms.