dear whoever,
I am at the beach and have been for a few days now. the super moon was a couple days ago but I couldn't go and howl my heart out at it. last night the moon was red-orange and I was at a pier and wanted to howl and run along the shore but I couldn't.
the reason I can't is because I am with my friend and my parents who 1. don't know about my therianthropy. 2. would think I'm weird.
I've been wearing my tail every chance I have and it feels great honestly. schools about to start back and I'm thinking of buying a new one before school starts, but an actual coyote tail.
I never knew how much it would hurt me to not be able to give into what instincts tell me to do. it physically hurts me sometimes and Its terrible.
I'm beginning to question my theriotype a bit. I feel like i should be part coyote or dog. I feel very conflicted calling myself a wolf therian when it doubt I'm fully wolf.
I refer to my wolf as "my wolf" instead of just saying it's me or "us". is that bad? or weird? like i feel somewhat weird about it but it also seems more natural for me.
~corie wolf
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