All Alone

The door creaks shut,

the car revs away.

They say they will return soon,

Come what may.

My eyes are wet, my hands trembling hard...

I dont know what to do, I dont know where to start.

The silence feels ethereal.Cold.Almost dead.

The house and its walls suffocate me

as I gasp for breath.

And all this while, it dawns on me..

the feeling which has just began to sink in,

the sense that I am all it is here.

I am all I have.

I am all alone.

I look around and find their things scattered,

traces of the hurried goodbyes they said...

and of the cold, lifeless hugs that they thrust upon me lie tattered.

And so tender was my soul,
crushed under the weight of their going...
so stunned it lay,  that even its rebel..
its struggle came up in silence.

I watch the sun fade away,
it's golden blush dimming,dampening... so slow yet so definitely....Like my hopes of seeing them ever again.

The sky is draped mauve .

Where are the stars I ask the sky!

Where are they when i need them the most...

I am dreamy but awake,

I am lost but still there,

I am going far away...hoping that perhaps..

Just perhaps the dreams will help.

I wake up in the middle of the night,

their beds still empty,

their closets still abandoned,

hangers thrown like confetti,

my emotions played with.

I look around the house,

I open the bathroom,

I search the attic.

And the truth, the reality drives me numb.

I ask myself that question,

That question which haunts me every day

"How long will I walk across these corridors alone?"

Silence is no longer comforting.

I need an answer.

I need it quick.

Because I am all alone.

And because I am scared.

The door is shut,

but I am no longer aware...

I am just staring away into the night...

I am looking towards the wrought iron gates...waiting...endlessly.

The fact that they didn't even look back..

that's what haunts me till date.

END.